it's time to change...

did hesitate whether want to write this anot..a week full of failure, disappointment, dullness..ya ppl used to forget unhappy stuffs, as soon as possible..but everyone need to get past themselves to do that..ya it's over already..last week, I was the one who still loafing around, lepak, promoting stressless exam..when exam approaching, suddenly I feel like stress is from everywhere, every corner, and almost every ppl as well..day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute..yea can say that my preparation for the 1st exam, Mechatronics was not that bad, and the exam can be considered as a bright start..of coz confidence will be boosted, and the 2nd paper,Fluids is one of the exam I have the most confidence..k the paper was easy, should have been a nice one if I didn't modify my answer..ahew got blurring Math class straight after the exam..no mood during the class also..well the result was lots of question marks, lots of stuffs to catch up for next week test..somebody help me~~mayb my theorem is right..I will screw up the exam which I have confidence and do relatively well in those I was-was or scare of..2nd day of exam was a disaster..for the Fluids subject everyone need to go through a so-called 'report check'..and I got a question that I don't even understand what the lecturer asking about..after class I felt like at a lost..crossing road also like ignoring all the passing cars..mayb I was expecting for a horn to wake up me, to pull me back from that 'blackhole'..for my 3rd paper, I studied not much, since the scope was given, and is a relatively easy subject..but after the little downfall, I no longer dare to have any confidence..and was scared to death when I had a black-out totally when facing the first 2 questions..relieved still managed to get back in form, and had all answers same with fellow Lionel..pray both of us get full marks^^being cheered up a bit, a disaster-like downfall came..as what I saw there're only 3 ppl with smiling face after a physics paper..I'm sad(or glad) to say that I most probably will get a z3ro for that paper..imagine hours b4 was extremely happy with the previous exam..from heaven to hell..only Lionel can understand my feeling gut..arrhh..for the dinner after that we did have little bit of cocktail..and thanks that my alcohol supply was 'scattered' around, somewhere I dunno where it's..if not I might have made myself drunken??(lol for heaven sake)..even if a can of 'HITE' will do..the amount of alcohol u can take without getting drunk is propotionally to ur mood..mayb I should have a dart also like JT does..for the last paper of the week, nothing much I can do..tried my best to kaji some calculation..and it didn't show its face in the exam paper..yea I had not enuf time to do all the questions, and did not that perfectly..but it gave me some satisfaction..mayb anything will look nice, compared to the paper with 0-score..and on the way back from exam..I was smiling uncontrollably..like paralysed..thanks to the group-dinner..I really had a nice time there^^and to 허준:"please don't ask me whether going to study anot everytime u talk to me!!!"..on my way home I met them(my classmates), just spent their time having alcohol..I'm going home for DOTA, not the darn damnit study!!!exam over dee ok?!!aigh even after exam also I stayed up very late..even if I am tired already hour b4 I slept..mayb going to sleep with a extremely tired brain will give me no chance to think of other stuffs b4 I fall asleep..and thanks for the hearing and the advice..now mc = mAGNIFICENTLY cOLLAPSE=.=