not meant to be

few hours more to step into the last month of my holidays, a month that may kill me with boredom, or transform me into a, or an, err dunno how to describe:P..well, it's up to me, and how I going to spend the time, and live my life..

it happened that I had a look at the calendar, only I realised that it's only one month past since spring semester ended..ahem I'm having a feeling like, ages have been gone, I learnt alot, saw alot, and think alot, too..maybe it's me who tends to have this kind of thinking when I find nothing to do..haha..arrghh I'm damn not good at writing a long long paragraph, so just start a new one~~

talking back about what I did for these few days>>nothing..everyday went to school for about one hour, not for study, but to do some ATM transaction..lolz meaning my $$$ flowing through the machine like electric current..really spent alot, and without the feeling of guilty..there's no cure for this disease I think, until ur bank account drops to zero, or with condition that u r busy with other stuffs..after this, one more keyboard and portable HDD then gotta lock my cards deep inside my luggage dee!!!

hmm, now I'm thinking whether to start my superb plan tmr or next week, though it's just few days difference..however, it requires big large huge determination to execute..all the preparation, 'apparatus','ingredients' are ready, the only thing left is ACTION!!!warming-up is going well too..there will be 2 big and meaningful events during the next 30 days, and hopefully I can participate in both..well at this while, anything different, even not special shouldn't be passed up~~

此时此刻..

此时此刻, 不知为何,还蛮想念3300公里外的家, 也许我真的累了吧..既然答应了老爸不回去, 不让他担心, 就别再想了!!只须忍多5个多月..不长不长, 我深信时光飞逝, 5个月, 眨眨眼睛, 也就过了..突然好想, 希望今年可以碰上, 真想尽早回去, 去扫扫祖父祖母的坟, 去参加外婆的寿宴..我已经缺席了4年, 唉!

剩下一个礼拜多, 我就可以正式宣告暑假的开始, 但希望不要是我郁闷的开始哦..夏暑班将结束, 我也将亲身体验'红魔鬼'比赛的激情^^然而, 迎之而来的是友人一个又一个的回乡..对于难堪寂寞的我, 肯定是莫大的折磨..一整个不知该干啥的八月, 倒是编排了不少可做又有意义的事, 希望到时可将它们付诸行动吧~~只是, 呆在高丽哪儿也不去, 只默数日子一天天过去, 对我来说还是第一次, 真不知是该笑还是该哭@@..想念旅行~~~

今天班上的实例发表 PRESENTATION, 倒是让我大开眼界..幸亏我有自知之明, 没有自取其辱参与发表, 不然可就得丢人现眼..用韩语发表30分钟是其一, 可贵的是发表者都能迎合问题侃侃而谈, 我自问可做不到..

没东西可写了, 就此打住~~(祝友人雁旅途愉快, 一切安好~)

'零度'心情

为什么说零度呢?
因为我也不知如何形容当下的心情..
每天三粒钟的管理课, 三粒钟的英语课, 读到有点要哭@@
也许因此才会想逃离, 想去旅行, 想回家..

昨天
当我正'专心','努力'地听课,
一旁的韩国人讲他学分连带3.5都没有
听到我心怕怕
下课时间马上一支箭似的射到电脑前..
看到很美的一排, 刚爽两三下
下面3.38, 这数字立即把我推下地底冰喾
等等, 冷静一下, 这根本不可能!!!
原来还有一课还未记录, 神经质啊你?!!
差点我没跳起来, 不过也足以让我载歌载舞了..希望没人留意到我吧..
说句真的, 这学期我可是十足的虎头蛇尾!!!
为了让自己容易过些, 也自欺欺人些
还把目标调得蛮底的..我爽就好~~
天幸不必重修, 还对得起自己..
强哥说他愿意跟我换, 说我的美..
我倒羡慕他的单上比我多出不少十字架..别人的东西总是美好的:P

平常出席会议还蛮多的
会议检讨我听了不少
那我是不是也该检讨下过去的学期??
我以正确的态度去对待吗?
我有改变自己成为一个真正的大学生吗?
我有摒弃以前那个超废的我吗?
我有长大吗?
我有变得自律, 有尽力吗?
听完各个科目都要做科目评价
你也给自己个评吧 臭鸡蛋~~

help!!!

help, I'm struggling!!!maybe, I had overestimated my ability@@
MIS, SIM, or whatever!!!
follwoing few days, grades of my subjects will come out in one shot..I have the confidence, kinda, I will surpass the target I set(very low though)..and, deep in my heart, praying for the best~~
well, if I can conquer, can get past this obstacle, shall I, can I, may I, try to get past another one??Do I have the guts??I did 2 years ago, will I have it again this time??Shall I just bite the bullet and get it on??time will tell~~
hmm, guess it's time to sleep..

(used 2 of the new expressions I learnt today..ok I know my English is poor, those are really new to me:P)