送‘9’迎‘10’~

2009 is going to be history in 15 hours or so.."yesterday is history", if reviewing how 2009 passed and what it meant to me..the most exciting one, is that I got grew up, at least more than I did than years ago..maybe it's because I entered the first 'real' Uni in my life, and no doubt that higher maturity is needed to cope with the real Uni life..or I would say that 2009 can be a brand new page in my life..

"Today is a gift" that's why they call the present..today is going to be a busy busy day for me..my cousin, who already registered is going to have his real ceremony tomorrow..and tonite a buffet is going to take place, where most of my relatives will be attending..happy that can see so many of them in once~why will it be a busy day for me??coz I have to go and help at my aunt's shop, becoming the temporary shopkeeper jaga kedai..inevitable, I'm a natural replacement for her since years ago..consider the party as a present to welcome me back la~~

"Tomorrow is mystery"..no one will know exactly what will happen tomorrow, or the future..all people can do is to have a nice plan for future, and work hard to achieve it..of coz, I gotta set myself a few goals and things-to-do for the coming 2010..
-first, is not to fail any subject to guarantee that I can graduate on time..

-second, becoming a nerd in the coming sem, my 3rd sem in Korea University..since my 2nd sem was screwn up, and that is no need to cry over spilt milk..macho, halfway through the sem already said in half-give-up state, and really screwed it up..ok as planned, the coming sem there's already no turning-back, study-hard-all the way!!! Gotta save back ur cpga MC!!!

-third, being responsible to my so-called 'representative' post..though it will be definitely the toughest and the busiest sem for us mecha students in KU, I will try my very best to do my job, to do all what I'm supposed to do..and if possible, is to do more than that..

-fourth, what else, travel la! 2009, aiks other than the Hong Kong-trip in the early year, I didn't travel to anywhere! this is damn wrong..New Zealand-trip quiting, no plan for winter-break..summer 2010, either Japan or Aussie! ok April or May I'm going to set up plan already, with condition that I manage to store up sufficient cash for that!

-last and the most uncertain one, to do things that I don't dare to do before..it could be anything..no need to mention bah~

hereby I wish everone(and myself too:P) Happy 2010 New Year and all the best^^for those who are students, excel in your studies~~for those who are working, naik pangkat naik gaji biar semua naik~~for my family, have a healthy and prosperous year ahead^^..for those who are in relationship, hope your relationship stay forever and grow stronger, for those who are single, find your another half soon~~for stock, naik banyak2 non-stop!

辛苦了~

ok the last post couldn't be my last post before going back, haha..

突然间想用华语写, 也许因为刚读了小姑的部落格吧..试, 是考完了..果真如以往, 丝毫没感到应有的狂乐, 反而有些恍然若失的感觉..也许是考的太糟了吧, 不管它, 2009年, 辛苦了~~

也不知想写些什么, 只想随意挥洒, 想到什么就写什么..该怎么说呢..我是该从新寻找对这对那的定义了..举棋不定, 自我矛盾, 诸如此类的应该减少..接下来的一年, 大四该以什么方式度过..

夜深了, 拼搏了一周, 该歇歇了, 等待归乡吧~

long long time...

ok this might be my last post here b4 I flying back..just wanna spend some time here, coz dunno what to do~~

ok, once I land on KLIA, it will be around 10 days left for this 2009..well, what will 2010 mean for me??everyone will reckon new year, new start, new style..maybe, but I can't tell 100% that it will be all new for me next year..

well, 1st of Jan..I going to attend my cousin's wedding..it's been dunno how long since I last attended a wedding ceremony/dinner of my relatives..hmm it's inevitable for those who studying aboard..haha and my little bro will be experiencing this soon~~hmm my cousin is going to marry a stewardness, they did register months ago actually, just that not yet the ceremony..well, for chinese, it won't be officially till the ceremony held..~~

and, hopefully, after going back and b4 CNY, I can have a trip to somewhere else, even in M'sia also acceptable, Kuantan and Singapore bah maybe..really miss travelling, alot!!!

2010, I gonna enter my last year in Korea University, just my 2nd year here..of coz, it is going to be the end of my student life if everything goes as planned..yea the one who always says he's tired of studying, is me..still, I guarantee that I'm going to miss this..hanging around, no need to worry of those breath-helding responsibilities(there're some of course, but not yet magnificient)..yea I hate of responsibilities..however at this age of 22, it's time to learn and have some, and frankly, I'm trying my very best to do so..hopefully I can cope with those little one I having, b4 I proceed to higher stage..

kk stomach is calling..maybe it's time for dinner, and for my 2nd last exam one hour plus later..wish ME VERY LUCK!!

countdown~

one month plus left, then I can fly back again..now, it's my only motive to strive..

as I said, few days ago, I did bring my cam to school, and shot more than 50 photos in an hour..not sure whether my skill good anot, all the photos were satisfying^^

Sunday 11/15, I did something that may become issue, but don't wanna care..for the first time, I had sports out there, 0 degree of Celcius weather, SIAO!!! kindly, all those who played were provided gloves, yet, both my hands frozen 99%, and my legs didn't 'listen' to me anymore@.@.. though I won sort of applause from the crowd, yet, I let my remaining time to be 'SHIT', didn't wanna dribble and run anymore@.@..

playing football this evening made me perasan,very badly..IF I were taller..IF I could have longer legs..then..then..then..then I could have reached the ball to score..then I could have jumped higher to win the ball..then I could have dribbled with the ball better..then I could have sped up faster..then I could have performed greater 'magic' works..then I could have dominated in center position in basketball..then I could have, I could have..EVERYTHING!!!

well, maybe no one could have expected me to come out with that kind of ('magic??') works and plays when I am upfront..yea, I have the potential in me..if I started to cultivate all of these earlier..I know, now it's kind of late for me to make it become a spark in my life, yet, I'm not going to give up..as long as given chance, I'm going to show it, to prove it, in front of many, in front of ALL!!! yo, BLESS ME~

autumn still with me~

'LOST'>>superb accurate word to describe my recent mood..very differently, I missing the mood before all exams over, weird..kk don't talk about those stupid things, since my mood is coming back!!!

왠지..today on the way to 창의관, looking at those almost-red leaves, I felt sad that I didn't have a camera with me>.<..I suddenly felt an urge to capture the scene myself, so, tomorrow I'm going to bring my 4-year-old 5-Mpixels digi-cam to school, pathetically@.@..but cheer, autumn still yet to be over, yay~~

my graphic card, running well so far..though my com still abit laggy, well, it's b'coz of other parts, my GForce N9600GT is working great, though 100K is abit pain!!! afraid of any accident, I still don't dare to format my comp to Window 7..another week, wait for me~~ops now WMP shuffled till 'Two is better than one', true huh??ya it seems so..aiks..'maybe two, is better than one'~~

fantastically, ppl are linked to each other, through ppl, fate, everything..found it out, and surprised at it accidentally, wow~~

things, aren't what they seem to be..knowing much is better, everyone thinks so..sometimes, knowing too much brings unnecessary bother..wondering, whether should I close my eyes, cover my ears, to stop myself from knowing more==어쩃튼, 오늘 밤, 내일 밤, DIVA DIVA DI DI DIVA~~

轮回..

不由得我不信, 这世上真的存在轮回..为什么每年我都要经历至少一次浆的心境..也许, 我还没勇气去尝试, 让这些都停下来..

两周下来, 真的比过山车还过山车..就像SINE GRAPH 般, 我的 T 竟然是两周, 天啊!!!还好, 一切好像在重新往上攀..真的, 尝试无视, 未必就一无所用..

ok I dunno what I'm writing also, stucked..can't wait for this Friday to come, 9pm..then, I'm going to splash money as hard as I could, during Saturday..don't care!!!

recently, can notice trends in interpreting stuffs around scientifically..hopefully, my next post can be something like that, really looking forward~

读着读着, 我愣了~

談戀愛時剛開時一兩年

因為新鮮感 這個時候屬於熱戀期

一切都是很美好的...

但一過了熱戀期 感情會漸入平淡

很多人會誤以為己經不愛對方了

其實不然

這時要適時的把自己的心態

從愛侶調整為伴侶

感情才能長長久久

想想看 你要的是 伴侶還是愛侶 ??

你追求的是伴侶?

還是愛侶.....?

週末偷閒的下午，和朋友躲在咖啡館裡，天南地北的聊。

不特意聊些什麼，但總會談到愛情；特意談些什麼，

愛情還是跑不掉的話題。

「有沒有什麼東西比愛情更好聊的？」我問。

「有啊。」朋友故意賣關子不接下去。

「那是什麼？」我帶著好奇，也有些不服氣。

哪有比愛情更適合咖啡的話題？

「是伴侶。」朋友斜睨著我，一臉玄機得意。

朋友接著說，「多年前我媽曾經對我說，她不管我到底要不要結婚，

但是她提醒我以後年老時要不要有個伴？」

「愛情跟伴侶有何矛盾？」我傻傻的問，兩者應該是不衝突的吧。

「雖不至於成了兩條平行線，卻經常產生消長的現象。」

朋友的眼中閃過點點晶亮的…

是笑意，還是波光？

「追求愛情的時候，嘴裡雖說著她是我一生的伴侶，

但往往卻是在愛情的味道淡去時，伴侶的意味才顯得濃厚。」

為什麼？

「因為愛侶與伴侶的功能，截然不同。

我們想跟愛侶做盡天下最浪漫奇想的事，

但我們與伴侶卻行生活簡單瑣碎之事。

前者風花雪月足堪回味，後者則是無可言喻的依賴。」

嗯，

我頓了很久，老實說，我不是很懂，

一心以為伴侶之間要存著愛情，而既然有愛，為何不稱是愛侶？

朋友問我現在有無憧憬？

我搖搖頭，有些悲涼，更是實際。

可是，被他這樣一問，忽然一絲領悟竄入腦裡，

為什麼沒有憧憬？因為心裡明白沒有永遠的愛情啊。

因為愛情本身不具永恆性，自然沒有永遠的愛侶，

也就是在這樣的情況下，才會想要伴侶，是那種陪伴一生的關係

「什麼是伴侶？」我很想聽聽朋友的說法。

「能夠一起相處，並且有共同目標的那種。」

太籠統抽象了，不行。

「愛情絕對會磨損的，這是人性，不是無情也無關乎薄情，

而是在愛情之後，洗鍊出來的是什麼？在兩人的濃情削減之時，

倘若裸露出來的目標一致，並能夠幫助對方達到想要的生活，那就是合適的伴侶。」

「但是，沒有愛情的伴侶，不過只是室友。」

我盯著朋友追問挑釁，心裡面，除了困惑與不甘之外，

還有一籮筐的問題排排站著等。

「也可以是朋友。」朋友不肯多說，臉上是那種似笑非笑的莫測神情。

「也可以是孩子的爸媽。」我好像懂了。

孩子也是共同目標，說得更仔細些，是共同愛的目標。

朋友微笑。

結帳之後，我們一起燦然步出咖啡館，

在門口熱情的揮手，互道再見。

我轉身離去，慢慢走在街上，腦中一片紛彩。

奇怪的很，剛才倏忽清晰的想法，卻在落單的時候，

怎麼又變得渾沌沌的。

行經頂好超級市場，於是信步進入，大肆採購。

走出超市時，天已經黑了。

週末華燈初上，都市男女已然著上最搶眼的服裝，

競相爭豔，準備大秀一場，

我衣衫簡樸從他們身邊掠過，

雙手拎著六只超級市場的採購袋，

氣喘吁吁的走在回家路上。

朋友的話忽然鑽入腦裡。

「年少時也想經歷轟轟烈烈的多采愛情，

　直到多次傷人與受傷之後，

　才懂得去尋找生活的樸實伴侶，並進而珍惜。

　與其在拉鋸抗衡的激烈情愛中享受巔峰起落，

　不如在相互依靠時尋得平穩安定。」

那麼我呢？

這個時候，

我需要的是生活上的伴侶，能夠幫我分擔重量，

一起走回家，將東西歸位之後，

坐下來，喝杯茶，看看電視，

在相互的依偎中，安然，放鬆。

除了這個時刻呢？

如果我還有四十年好活，我更要選擇純然的生活伴侶，

如果一星期去一次超市採買，

四十年平均會有二千零八次，

那麼，還是精撿一個務實的伴侶有用的多。

愛侶也會陪妳去啊？我糾正我自己。

不，不會，我很篤定。

因為我會心疼他上班勞累，

一定趁他工作時自己趕緊把這些苦力辦好，

所以他不會有機會陪我去的。

他若愛妳，他會堅持陪妳去的。心底有一個聲音縈縈升起。

不，不會，男生很容易被慣壞的，如果妳已經做好了，

他會對此事睜一隻眼，閉一隻眼，然後試著在其他方面補償妳。

那沒有愛情的伴侶妳能接受嗎？我再問我自己。

我願意從現在開始，

就與我的伴侶慢慢培養更貼近的感情，誠心誠意。

寧願在彼此的陪伴中，領受不溫不熱的愛意，

也不要從濃烈激盪的熱情中，忽而墜落到難以調適的室溫中空。

對，就是這樣ok。

好久, 好想..

好久没到这属于自己的小天地了..最近真那么忙吗??噢..
学习不要再叹气, 走着路也要像个小孩似的, 蹦蹦跳跳..
可以玩的时间少了, 人们说:"是不是该长大了呢?"..
没错, 也许...
所以, 我正学着积极点儿..
隔了太久, 好像已经不晓得怎么写部落格了, 还是此刻的心情太错综复杂了呢??

秋天到了
往年我最喜爱的季节
为什么
为什么今年那么不一样?

好想, 回到过去, 回到不用想那么多的时期..

近来 有什么可分享的吗??
有.
降落伞大会, 在我的领导下, 我组得了 第一?第二名..可不是盖的哦..
所谓的真理, 我探讨的是越来越多
然而, 我是真的在追求真理吗?? 还是只在扩张我的交际圈?
啊, 懒得去想~~

#(*&$*Q&#*(@*

烦死了, 我这几天都干了什么..真想跑到大街上, 열람실里, 用尽全力地大喊 %&#*()&$*()#$*(Q)*#@*#%()*)(*%)Q)()(@*%)#(!!!!

사은

우후 달라진 게 없어서 넘 감사하구...

another week almost passed, ahew like riding roller-coaster..
computing the progress nicely, well, u can't arrange everything nicely, ideally without considering incidents that might happen anytime, out of sudden, out of ur expectation..
let's get things back on track
no matter how it's going to end up, life still goes on, right??
determination needed
작업을 더 강력하게...
no more last-minute work...
stress already at ur nose..
flu already around..
guess I couldn't have anything worse than this b4 bidding a welcome to autumn 2009@.@

blink blink~~

in this friday morning, I'm back, writing here again, it's been a long time

no matter u going to admit it or not, time really flies..just a blink of an eye, we're on the end of 2nd week of autumn semester, fast rite?? imagine>>another 7 2-week-s, I'll be back to Big River again^^seems like staying in Korea for the whole day without going abroad made me desperate to go back..

ok new sem new mission + new vision..of coz there're also new challenges lying ahead..this will be a crazy sem with crazy schedule..no more marathon-style classes, almost all of my classes come with interval of at least an hour..what else, those intervals should be 'utilized', like doing assignments, studying or so..well, plans are always perfect rite, yet reality always turns out as another story..fooling around la, leng-lui's hunting la, online la, gym la..all sorts of things..am I ready yet??글쎄..

if talking about changes..has thing changed??I dunno, but I can sense some difference, 뭐가 달라졌단 느낌..like what I defined as my darkness, 자기가 어떤 자세로 이 세상을 대처해야 하는가..how am I supposed to view this world, this universe..if someone suddenly find me with few Koreans in cafeteria, doing so-called 'bible study', haha!! it's impossible for me to accept the embracement, just that it won't be a bad thing what to know more things, to know more friends, and expand my networking(sometimes can get free meal somemore~~):P..

OKAY I found dee what's changed..the lecturer I hated the most last sem, Prof. Sim is now my favourite lecturer~~not to say that I took his class for 2 consecutive sems, he's really great lecturer..his kindness already proven from the result he gave me, my weakest subject last sem, and this sem, his class is the one I enjoying the most, GRAPHICS le..and one more thing>>

got same meh!!!DAMN

anyway he's my DYNAMICS lecturer, a super-lepak lecturer..but now he's having white-and-grey hair:P

yay^^

will be leaving Seoul, heading to Busan for 2-day-1-night trip^^a last-minute grap!!!

夏日 fiesta~~

I never been to 夏日 fiesta concert before, and this post is not about 夏日 fiesta too..however, MBC FM4U 여름음악 페스티벌 2009 made me think of it, since it's 夏日, and it's hot during the night the concert was held..
and thanks to Mr. Steven Soo, I was blocked by a staff, since 3 of us went with only 2 tickets..for the first time in my life, I sneaked into the square, and the excitement of success was kind of, great^^

before the concert, we were wondering about who 휘성 is, and I could onlyl keep telling that he will be one worth seeing..in fact, I didn't even know whether is a 'he' or 'she', but I knew that I have few songs of his/her in my com~~dang dang dang>>he was the first performing, Insomnia, OMG a song I listen quite often, from him!!!

the 2nd, dunno whether to be considered as a group or what, a male and a female singer, brought a song, "She is"..those who watched Korean drama "My Name is Kim Sam Soon" few years ago will know this song:P..few singers and groups afterwards, I didn't even have a single idea about them, except 김범수 with '보고 싶다'..kah3 I really know very little about Korean musics~~

2 SNSD(Girl Generation) 'freaks' who went with me told that SNSD had a minor accident days ago, and were cursing the introduction of special guests going to perform>>Brown Eyed Girls..they cursed like SNSD's performance is going to be replaced..I wondered whether will it be a chaos if it really happens, 난리 난다..

윤건, performed '벌써 일년' with piano, with one playing violin at the back, and three making the background sing..this really impressed me, a r3al performance, I called..'Way Back into Love', with this song he brought out Tae-yeon, one member of SNSD..

well, what a relief for those, dunno how many thousands of SNSD fans there..their performance heated up the crowd, and the atmosphere, especially those 'freaking perverts' sitting right in front of the stage, lined up early in the morning just to get the VIPs' tickets to sit at the special spots, according to the MC..

this rounded up the concert..we called it a day for what's in Hanyang, but another 4차 waiting in KU.. a visit from Swee Sing, brought a rally till 3:30am, hof, Kara-oke, McD ice-cream, and bar~~what a night!!!


the day before, a visit to SNU, to cang ve, and the party of juniors, met up few 선생..the night after, went for a movie, G.I.Joe..last night, just because Wawa ajak, went to City-Hall to watch dynamic light show..the name made ppl expect much, expect something like what we watch in Hong Kong..haha, well it's still kind of art~~continuous outing for 4 nights, tiring and money-killing~~!!!

3 weeks before the holidays come to its end..how nice if I can squeeze my butt into the little bus for summer trip held by PPMK..grrrr let me in!!!aiks sad that I reacted too late to the mail=.=
different from weeks ago, now how I wish that I can have longer holidays haha..3 weeks are just too short, for too much things to be done~~

not meant to be

few hours more to step into the last month of my holidays, a month that may kill me with boredom, or transform me into a, or an, err dunno how to describe:P..well, it's up to me, and how I going to spend the time, and live my life..

it happened that I had a look at the calendar, only I realised that it's only one month past since spring semester ended..ahem I'm having a feeling like, ages have been gone, I learnt alot, saw alot, and think alot, too..maybe it's me who tends to have this kind of thinking when I find nothing to do..haha..arrghh I'm damn not good at writing a long long paragraph, so just start a new one~~

talking back about what I did for these few days>>nothing..everyday went to school for about one hour, not for study, but to do some ATM transaction..lolz meaning my $$$ flowing through the machine like electric current..really spent alot, and without the feeling of guilty..there's no cure for this disease I think, until ur bank account drops to zero, or with condition that u r busy with other stuffs..after this, one more keyboard and portable HDD then gotta lock my cards deep inside my luggage dee!!!

hmm, now I'm thinking whether to start my superb plan tmr or next week, though it's just few days difference..however, it requires big large huge determination to execute..all the preparation, 'apparatus','ingredients' are ready, the only thing left is ACTION!!!warming-up is going well too..there will be 2 big and meaningful events during the next 30 days, and hopefully I can participate in both..well at this while, anything different, even not special shouldn't be passed up~~

此时此刻..

此时此刻, 不知为何,还蛮想念3300公里外的家, 也许我真的累了吧..既然答应了老爸不回去, 不让他担心, 就别再想了!!只须忍多5个多月..不长不长, 我深信时光飞逝, 5个月, 眨眨眼睛, 也就过了..突然好想, 希望今年可以碰上, 真想尽早回去, 去扫扫祖父祖母的坟, 去参加外婆的寿宴..我已经缺席了4年, 唉!

剩下一个礼拜多, 我就可以正式宣告暑假的开始, 但希望不要是我郁闷的开始哦..夏暑班将结束, 我也将亲身体验'红魔鬼'比赛的激情^^然而, 迎之而来的是友人一个又一个的回乡..对于难堪寂寞的我, 肯定是莫大的折磨..一整个不知该干啥的八月, 倒是编排了不少可做又有意义的事, 希望到时可将它们付诸行动吧~~只是, 呆在高丽哪儿也不去, 只默数日子一天天过去, 对我来说还是第一次, 真不知是该笑还是该哭@@..想念旅行~~~

今天班上的实例发表 PRESENTATION, 倒是让我大开眼界..幸亏我有自知之明, 没有自取其辱参与发表, 不然可就得丢人现眼..用韩语发表30分钟是其一, 可贵的是发表者都能迎合问题侃侃而谈, 我自问可做不到..

没东西可写了, 就此打住~~(祝友人雁旅途愉快, 一切安好~)

'零度'心情

为什么说零度呢?
因为我也不知如何形容当下的心情..
每天三粒钟的管理课, 三粒钟的英语课, 读到有点要哭@@
也许因此才会想逃离, 想去旅行, 想回家..

昨天
当我正'专心','努力'地听课,
一旁的韩国人讲他学分连带3.5都没有
听到我心怕怕
下课时间马上一支箭似的射到电脑前..
看到很美的一排, 刚爽两三下
下面3.38, 这数字立即把我推下地底冰喾
等等, 冷静一下, 这根本不可能!!!
原来还有一课还未记录, 神经质啊你?!!
差点我没跳起来, 不过也足以让我载歌载舞了..希望没人留意到我吧..
说句真的, 这学期我可是十足的虎头蛇尾!!!
为了让自己容易过些, 也自欺欺人些
还把目标调得蛮底的..我爽就好~~
天幸不必重修, 还对得起自己..
强哥说他愿意跟我换, 说我的美..
我倒羡慕他的单上比我多出不少十字架..别人的东西总是美好的:P

平常出席会议还蛮多的
会议检讨我听了不少
那我是不是也该检讨下过去的学期??
我以正确的态度去对待吗?
我有改变自己成为一个真正的大学生吗?
我有摒弃以前那个超废的我吗?
我有长大吗?
我有变得自律, 有尽力吗?
听完各个科目都要做科目评价
你也给自己个评吧 臭鸡蛋~~

help!!!

help, I'm struggling!!!maybe, I had overestimated my ability@@
MIS, SIM, or whatever!!!
follwoing few days, grades of my subjects will come out in one shot..I have the confidence, kinda, I will surpass the target I set(very low though)..and, deep in my heart, praying for the best~~
well, if I can conquer, can get past this obstacle, shall I, can I, may I, try to get past another one??Do I have the guts??I did 2 years ago, will I have it again this time??Shall I just bite the bullet and get it on??time will tell~~
hmm, guess it's time to sleep..

(used 2 of the new expressions I learnt today..ok I know my English is poor, those are really new to me:P)

I'm a good student~~

ok now a little 해방 from exam, and I can write some crap here..wrote this like few weeks ago, when lecturer teaching in front, I left this on the last page of my classnotes~~

相见欢 相遇愉
相识一场 相交数次
一月了 见面说声嗨
一年了 照面给个笑
数年了 相遇打个怪眼神
怎么了 如今碰面似隔着墙
有话说不出口 有口说不出话
没话题 太阳小雨搬上台
斟杯酒 风花雪月飘不来
一日三秋倒好
一餐三秒无欢
问我写些啥 我却问谁去??

what happened to me?!!

on the way home after basketball, wz suddenly told that he heard me mumbling in my sleep..oh man what a shock!! I never had this b4, never heard from any of my previous roomies also!! OMGX10000 what's wrong with me?? am I just too tired?? stress?? worried?? anxious?? grrr SOS!!(can't let my secretsss leak also:P)

b4 I went to bed, suddenly felt like drinking kopi-peng in M'sia..awww really gotta go back this summer, already set my mood like that, I wanna go home!! cafe-latte, cappuccino or whatever, I only want kopi-peng!! and again, I was struck by one more thing: 黄大仙 is damn cun, super-duper..all the tilik I made, like going to become truth, one by one..man, though one of them is good, but the rest, are enough to make my life miserable@@

(babi I'm just not in the mood I should be in)

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how I wish that I can have time to post something new here@@

无题

　“你是一个翩翩佳公子，天天辛勤赚钱养活妻子，但妻子一点都不满足，反而整天指桑骂槐。这时，有一个火爆美女向你抛来媚眼。你或许并不想出轨，但何妨让这种暧昧持续得更长一点？我保证你妻子会有危机感，保不准献上最激情的一夜！”

大战前夕

did nothing since I came back from 열람, was fooling and wasting time around instead..thanks that I have good mood today, even physically feeling sux and like going to get sick..

ppl say study hard play hard..I gonna make another one my dream: study smart play hard!!hope that this will become true a day not far away~~

today Sam gave us back our exam paper, yeah my score came out as expected..just a little 아깝다 coz I lost marks in stupid way, should have stayed longer in the exam hall few weeks ago@@..I top my group in the score^^not meaning to compare, just feel happy over it~~( grant me all ur luck for my physics 2nd exam tmr! I know history won't be repeating this time, but I will try my 200% best, PROMISE!!)

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my current personal message: 只要灿烂过, 就再无遗憾~~
tmr will always be a better day..yea I have been 灿烂过, and sure will be 灿烂 again..lalala~~

bu shuang!

why must I be tortured physically when exam is coming?!!

mother's day

一直以来, 都不曾为爸妈大肆庆祝过父亲节或母亲节..也许爸妈向来以传统持家, 也许咱兄弟姐妹四人在感情表现上都含蓄了点..然而含辛茹苦的双亲也不以为意..只要心中有孝, 不做些足以惹他们生气的事就得了..争气点, 努力过好每一天, 天天都是双亲节, 很特别, 不是吗??

话虽如此, 我想今年老妈算是收到份大礼吧..家中老么的出路终于有着落了!!母亲节大礼, 一卷奖学金状纸该是再好不过了..兄弟姐妹四人的升学途径都尘埃落定, 爸妈也就公德圆满, 老怀安慰, 可翘定脚等享清福了..您俩是最棒的了! 母亲节快乐 妈咪^^

(堂哥梓, 祝你新婚快乐, 白首和谐^^)

写着写着, 发觉自己的中文还真烂, 哇塞 退步了好多耶!

random

关于希望和路，但凡有人引用鲁迅的话语，都似乎在为后来者引领方向、为迷茫者指点迷津，可鲁迅真是这个意思吗？走的人多了，也变成了路，可所有的路都是殊途同归吗？会不会有的路引导你上天堂，有的路却是通向万劫不复的地狱？你本来可以在浑浑噩噩中自生自灭，有了路，你又必须沿路而行，可是你所向往的目的地，和你踏上的这条道路能完全吻合吗？

just can't make it!!

everything is so so well-planned, and more-than-sufficient time..well, I'm just not in the mood to make it done, with something hanging on my heart, the stupid transmission drawing..hmm stop complaining and go dig in the book again!!!
(why my dl speed so slow?!!just wanna dl one movie to watch only, dAmN!!!!!!)

sUp3rb

remind me of the time I was in band, though not this geng:D

나는 고대인, 붉은 노을~~

halfway through this very first sem in KU..so far, what I found out is that I did make a right choice to come here..still can't forget that few months ago, I was standing at the T-junction, looking at both the roads with a blur vision..for some, they just need to take one road and walk straight without the need to look back, but for me, I was the one who made the road diverged..already 21(now 22:D), still need others to decide for me..in fact, feeling of guilty and the responsibility was haunting me that time..even the thought of running away from the crowd..

well, whatever happened b4, it happened already..now, I'm KU student, of Mechanical Engineering Department..to be frank, being the only group that taking ABEEK here did make me feel lifted(not sure whether abit or ALOTS!).."We ABEEK, u no ABEEK", "u all ABEEK, we no ABEEK"..can be listened quite often..well, there's no point to make comparision, maybe just to release out some stress and tension..what made me feel my decision right??

first, my coursemates here..under one department, and not divided into classes as in college b4, we are more united than ever..there are 10 of us, and ppl say always meet Mechanical gang in campus cafeteria in such big group..the most important is that we help each other, seldom(or never) think of comparing(of coz there's still some, but let's not consider the exception)..there is no doubt that comparision and competition bring improvement, but is there still any point to compare at this stage??come'on man as fy said:"Life is too short to be miserable"..don't u feel tired, after comparing for so many years??we having fun, but can't say that we don't care about studies..we do feel panic when exams approaching..but other time, u can see us going crazy around, bursting into laughs, shouts with some bullshit..this is our Mechanical students, in KU..

second, the exams here..I'm never a exam freak, I hate exams..exams here are hard, but I like them..u r wrong if u think I did well in all my exams..maybe in certain subjects, but the reason I like exams here is that I can perform until 120% of my ability, it brings out some of my hidden potential(hope this is not the max yet:P)..I was panic, tension b4 exams, feeling scared, couldn't solve even one question from books..the only thing I can do is just praying hard that I can pass the exam and don't need to retake it..yet, during exams I still can come out with something(or some shit LOLZ)..my confidence boosted everytime after exam, even though I know my score won't be anywhere near excellent..still, this is the best that I can do.

now, I'm a real Uni student finally(I don't recogize myself as one when I was in college)..am I having and doing everything required, to be a complete Uni student??hmm now in the process of finding out, to make my Uni life a perfection..what else I lack of?!!I think I was a nerd last time, during primary school..but actually what I read the most are storybooks, novels and so on, but not textbooks..not sure whether ppl still nudge me as one now, but I can't deny the 'nerdity' just by saying that:"I got play dota ok, where got study all the time."..lolz..whatever it's, I will just say:"이거 내 스타일이야!".

one more, though it's not the last!

phew, in a bad mood, and with a heavy head, I beat one more of my '3nemies'!!! one more to go b4 I can have my short break..아짜~~
just found out that:原来我不是那么差嘛! hope I will still think like this after Thursday evening^^

although Sam/=Shrek

well, I didn't watch 'Shrek' movie b4..but this Tuesday, Sam made me think that I know about Shrek, at least the way Shrek speaks.

here let me introduce Sam Yoon S.K., my lecturer of Thermo, the subject that I enjoy and like the most this sem..it is a English lecture, and Prof. Sam speaks pretty good English, and he looks smart and handsome, made me think of pure Englishman..the past Tuesday class, forgot the situation already, he suddenly spoke like Shrek:"It's number 3 my Lord."..it was totally, exactly, perfectly the same with what I heard from Shrek's thriller..wow!!!

he claimed he's the most stylish lecturer in our department.. well, I can't agree with him 100% since I only know very few of the lecturers, but what I can assure is he is definitely the most handsome one bah:)..quite frequently, he told about his wife..every class, at least twice or more, he will say his quote:"it was a joke, a bad joke.","hey I'm making a joke, u guys are supposed to laugh!"..

in class, those who sit in front will always kena, especially those who make themselves catching his eyesight, by clothing or act..so, sometimes I will try to avoid from wearing pink-color shirt, or my MC-shit to his class, gotta stay low-profile man~~ kononnyer

why did I write so much about him??coz he's my favourite lecturer this sem, and thermo is my favourite subject this sem..and the textbook is wide-opened in front of me now, and the exam is on next Tues, and pray hard that the paper will be nice, since I wrote so much about him~~

什么叫做'狂'??

本人曾自比杨过称狂
拿督却说狂在那儿??
狂, 当然是狂在我行我素
狂, 当然是狂到不理众生之见
如果要狂而让人赞'yieng'
那就不是狂了呀 拿督

先入为主
不得不认同呀
一次, 忍着气吞下去也就罢了
一而再, 要我蒙受不白之冤
我可不能任你鱼肉啊

大战在睫
我仍能"大海从鱼跃"
寻求"长空任鸟飞"
但愿不会流弹打了下来
知心的
可否为我打造无形的墙
保我安然飞到目的地

@@

don't wanna fall sick now=.=

what a day...

it had been long time since I felt as down as I am feeling now, with the reason being unknown..
well, the day started brillant enough for me..
a friend who trying to live a sleep-early-wake-up-early lifestyle told that it needs great determination to practise this..
our Einstein claimed that no JPA student sleeps b4 12..
and last nite, I slept b4 12, woke up around 3:30 for a crucial-ever match..
for that, I woke up late and almost late to my thermo class, followed behind Sam, our lecturer head-to-tail into the class..
my fellow coursemates, hc, lionel and ch..the whole house woke up late too, and got to the class later than me..
Sam, our lecturer, said that he doesn't know what wrong with him too,so so early in the morning..
what happened this morning??to everybody..
yet, we didn't feel sleepy at all in our next class, a lecture which I use to fish in..
even if I did, only for 5 seconds..
and, since I got to school quite early, I managed to book a seat in library's study column..
I booked that seat for more than 12 hours today, even I had class to attend, I occupied that seat..
not bad that I studied for few hours there, and the progress was quite pleasing..
after Korean class and dinner, things went another way, a totally different way..
I started to feel guilty, started to feel noobie, started to feel...
things started to go wrong..
everything turned out to be 'serba-tak-jadi'..
and I felt down
lost my mind..
lost my confidence..
lost my optimism..
and felt like everything is going away from me..
NOOO..COME BACK!!!
argghhh..just don't want to enter exam mode in this condition and mood~~

random

如果一切可以重来
如果有一万个如果
又何致如此??

found this from an article:
不刻薄自己：这个世界上没有人比你更爱自己，你若不对自己好，谁又会对你好呢？

沉思

又长了一岁的我,
又迷失自我的我,
又陷入沉思的我,
又不知所措的我

一句话,
足以让人脑中浮现问号;
再一句话,
足以让人困扰;
又一句话,
足以让人心如刀割, 泪如雨下


{
爱上你 那时爱到不象话
后来 想尽办法忘掉
到最后 我就合上嘴巴
多说像对自己撒谎
星空下说永恒 额头上的吻
你双手将我环绕
未来即便它是一个问号
也能对自己炫耀
有一句话 再也都听不到
那些过往 只好放在心上
你爱我 太美好 时间会知道
怎样去 熬成一句动人的话
那些过往 让它自己燃烧
我爱你 太美好 时间会知道
怎样去 熬成动人一句话
记忆里说我们 相同的体温
一想到就不会冷
未来永远都是 一个问号
也是种天荒地老
这是一种成长 还是一种逞强
我的寂寞很善良 陪我到任何地方
那些过往 越呼吸越明亮
我爱你 太美好 时间它一定会
把它熬成世上最动人的话
}

Mr. Tired@@

finally, it's weekend again..

this week, no exam, most of the homework also finished earlier during last weekend..still, I can't get enough sleep..during winter vacation back in M'sia, all also sounded me, of my again-'slimness', not like winter 2007, got grew a bit round.. ba-ma sounded, don't always stay up late..nodded and 'oo', still, doing the same thing again now..everyday fish in class@@..I will not take any morning class again next sem, if there's choice=.=

真的~~

你的电脑还开着
在这个时刻
我想起学校里的气氛
甜蜜散乱了
房里莫名的冰冷
我还不睡呐
伴你若有若无写着blog
假装还早呐

时间过了走了
功课面临 due date
你做了好了我哭了 　
一开始的超 lepak
你用电脑 dota着
有些功课拖到这真的糟了~~

怎么了 你累了 说好的 '假期'呐
我懒了 不做了 头晕了 不转了
会做与不会做一一叙述着你在偷懒
那些该做的功课全太沉重.我都还记得

你不等了.说好的.'假期'呐
我错了.夜深了.放弃了. 唠叨了
只是时间的时分针还跳动着. 要怎么拖呐
　　

　　

Europe | The final countdown

got to listen to the starting rythm of this song while watching NBA match live..

it's the final countdown~~
it's the final countdown~~

final countdown to??
to the end of the match??
to the end of the world??
to the end of determination??
to the end of this relationship??

when to start the final countdown~~

random

thinking deep, again..

now, being brought into deep thinking again..shall I??shall I??everytime things ends up like this, and I just let it happen the way it happens..well, let's think in dream bah==

听~~

我的抽屉 沾满灰尘
有多久没整理
浓浓哀伤在叹息
我拿起了笔 写了古典
第一乐章 我想告诉你
我快要听不清楚
非得要像休止符
黑不拉几要断断续续
连贝多芬 也都爱上你
你说分开最美丽
好! 我还想乐章在继续
爱来爱去 爱不过是病
连贝多芬 都想告诉你
耳聋了 更有意义
也许你只是下雨下在我的青草地
等放晴了 就自然蒸发

(突然间)

世界上最遥远的距离

世界上最遥远的距离　不是生与死
而是　我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你

世界上最遥远的距离　
不是　我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
而是 明明知道彼此相爱
却不能在一起

世界上最遥远的距离　
不是　明明知道彼此相爱　
却不能在一起
而是　明明无法抵挡这股想念　
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里

世界上最遥远的距离　
不是　 明明无法抵挡这股想念
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是　用自己冷默的心　
对爱你的人掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠


~~摘自某网页 (因友人启发, 搜寻而得)~~

hew..KU..

mentally tired and sitting in my slightly dim room, in front of my com..it's just 7 in the evening, and the feeling is like: I can't wait for tomorrow to come, coz I wanna to forget all about today, 23rd of Mac 2009..

1분1초라도, 쉴 래~~

(2 more days to go)

周始循环

开'工'仅一周
检讨得失还嫌太早
搬搬走走 忙了一周
安定下了 课程编排上又失魂落魄了一周
现下又到了收拾心情的时候
来吧 长达三月的马拉松!!!

countdown: 2 days

happened that woke up too early today, and got to blog here, which I wanted to post something long long ago..

set alarm at 9, wanted to get up to help few mates shifting house..well, the low temperature of the whole room and the warmth in my little thich blanket tempted me to keep lying, strongly..9:55 I woke up totally, took few pieces of biscuits, changed and went out, expecting to see ppl busy carrying things around..np..no one was..went downstairs only I saw jt and wz moving bed into the lift..man I'm late again, same as 2 years ago..see u guys in An-am then...

these few days I'm staying alone in the room that 3 ppl stayed in b4..just like the others think, I thought the feeling will be the best out of the best too..it's not, sadly..when u are occupying such a big space, it's weird!! maybe I never have my own room b4 for the entire of my life, at home, in KMNS, in INTEC(I had few weeks staying alone in the room, but the stay in CEMARA was the dullest part of my student-lodging life), until I came here..I used to have 2 or 3 roommates, and now I have few days to experience, 'to have my room'..and these few days, I started to notice, that I tend to isolate myself from the others..well, this may have happened already since coming back from Hong Kong trip, or since leaving M'sia more exactly, since u won't have time to think about all these when u r on a trip..these few days made me realise the truth..I no longer tend to go into group that much as b4..I tend to get back to my own room as soon as things settled..I tend to sit in front of my com, watching drama, dotaing and whatever..I tend to get back into the little world I live in, in 308..ffew said I cabut from Yonsei just for the Hong Kong trip..I know theye were just kidding, but I did really think of not following the trip, after I decided to choose KU as the last stop in my student life(maybe), so that I can stay longer with parents and little bro..well, I will never join or plan trip on the way of coming back to Korea from M'sia again.. hmm I won't have the chance also after this..

2 days..2 days b4 I leaving 308, shifting to another region, like another totally different world.. ppl will be studying crazily there, but will I?? though I promised to 老爸, though I promised to myself.. now, how to pack all my stuffs?? I threw things around. I messed things up.. just to make this big room looks smaller..ppl came in, looked at my stuffs and asked how come I got so much stuffs..what a success I managed to make it!!!made my room smaller using these 'much' stuffs..侯文咏!!why u never mention about how to embrace own soul in ur 灵魂的拥抱??!!!

'nightm4r3'@@

日有所思，夜有所梦..there's no doubt that it's true..
the things, stuffs that u keep thinking of the whole day, u will dream about it too in ur sleep..
what do I keep thinking of these days??that I'm leaving, off to Korea land of Sonata once again.. in contrast to the one who kept shouting "BORING" few weeks ago, now I don't feel wanna go at all, with the date to leave drawing nearer..and maybe because of thinking too much, in my dream, I missed the satellite subway to departure terminal, resulted in missing the flight..till now I can remember clearly what I'm thinking in my dream: since I don't want to go back so much, it was made that I get to stay, though in another way==

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Barack Obama: "who we are, and how far we have travelled!"

the end, again..

soul embracing..what does it mean??

finished reading a Chinese novel with title 'SOUL EMBRACING'..it begins with a cancer-patient posted her article under a well-known author's name..this article brought a positive, great response from the society and readers..with the author didn't take action to tell the truth, started the conflict of the story..

embrace..usually applied physically, through body..how to embrace each other through soul??the article mentioned above defined it as hugging heart to heart, with sincerity..very illusive huh..for me, finished reading this book means time to look for another reading material again...

oncoming..

getting pissed off with this noob com, swore that I will bring back mine next year, and get myself a notebook!!!
one more week, bro, sis and auntie will be back for CNY, and my home will be meriah, full of noise, and syok balik again.
the whole Harry Potter series finished already, after I read the 6th and 7th during this holidays..the 7th book read through E-Book Mandarin version, my bro passed it to me..damn weird reading English fiction in Mandarin..
no more storybook to read, and lazy plus no mood to read those textbooks I brought back, for the placement test awaiting in Feb..
today just received piles of DVD's from auntie, 20++ old and new dramas..hehe will help me spend the time YAHOO!!!
wanna drive here and there more often, if not won't be having the chance to drive already for another year plus==super syok to drive from home to any city nearby, which takes more than 1 or 2- hour journey:D
CNY this year..I'm longing for it!!!friends will be around, lots of them..wanna go visit few teachers this sem, teachers that taught us well, teachers that we owe alot to, teachers that contributed and resulted in our will-be-bright future..
CNY..this year, I gonna rely on the ang-pau money for my trips and outing..home-coming this year qute 'zit do', don't even dare to go and withdraw money from my personal account, or it will be kering@@..uncles aunties grandma married gorgor's jie jie's>>big ang-pau please..

2-1=1

回家将近个来月了，每天除了打机上网`看戏`看书，我还做了些什么？？睡觉！！
顶多也不过是把老早就该决定的决定敲定了下来，恐怕还会因此招众议，招白眼，还当了个二五仔。
闷了三周，与友出去逛了三日，花了百来块，但总胜于呆在家等日子过吧。
本该多姿多彩`将近两个月的假期，只剩下一个月了。多两个星期就要到来的牛年，广告都喊着‘牛转乾坤’的祝语，新的一年里，又有什么是我该扭转的吗？？
新年后的日程可说排得满满的，东禅寺`云顶..但愿别一开年就是了众人约..
还有啊 小王，把你那头头发剪短吧。。

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so hard din feel sien for few days dee, thanks to HARRY POTTER's 6th book, which I bought long time ago but haven't finished till yesterday..though it's abit late, but sad that Dumbledore was killed by that nasty and evil Snape..totally absorbed into the story for few days reading it..but after I finished it, felt at a loss, omg!!!wasting no time I went out to find, thought of buying the 7th book to read, for the sake of killing time and boredom..yet, I can't find a single book in English, all in Malays, published by Pelangi somemore..zzz..the one I looking for is Scholastic-published and in English!!!

btw, tmr I going Klang and Shah Alam, finally can go somewhere else again since sending my bro and sis back to Uni that day..and hopefully, can find the book I want while walking around, I suppose:P..dunno whether juniors this year, handsome or pretty or not..haha..