it's weird:|

Friday..a day which everybody's waiting for..but today..

can't really explain why..from the morning till just now..everything like, not going wrong but just made me blur..for the C++ class's quiz, by the time I entered the classroom only I knew that I didn't memorize the script that will come out in quiz later..nvm it's like ABC for me to handle:P..a gal sitting beside me, busy copying the script on her table while I trying to memorize it as perfect as I can..who knows so 绝 is the lecturer, asked us to move to another building for the quiz..deng2..haha almost all busy rubbing off their 'works':P..in the end, the results of this quiz won't be taken into our marking!!!damn..

ok the whole afternoon at home b4 Chemistry class..did nothing except buying stuffs from market, bringing juniors to hospital, erm and cooking..was in a drowsing form during final class of the week until an interesting question brought to discussion..after a dunno what shit game, suddenly I like became a dunno what monster..aigh..maybe b'coz of I'm doing the last effort, preparing for tmr's tutoring??slowly I found the lepakness last few week being drew further and further=.=maybe this is what ppl call 'RL'..or??

2 days ago..I went to bank, and made maybe my biggest gamble so far..millions placed..dun think that my move is harsh, but still..can't avoid from having this kinda feeling rite since it's only ur first time..yeah believe in myself, and my decision..아싸~~就让一切到此为止吧..

是含蓄吗??

为什么??
明明我会的`晓得的, 为什么不说出来?
为什么要装得一点都不懂的样?
是含蓄吗?抑或是故作低调?还是失去了自信?
多年前满身油迹`什么都抢着做的我已不复见
真正做起来时, 那属于会家子的感觉当真妙不可言
数月前, 低调却换来可恶的鄙视
虽然还蛮享受含蓄`低调的感觉
也许到了该表现自我的时候了
望前方, 直直走过去
也就是了
提起劲来吧
Show them what u have, what u can do!!!

青花瓷--没预料到~~

difference found!!!

for the first time?I feel sien and muak dee just after one game..yeah started to feel the packedness of life, from all..mama said so fast back from M'sia for one month dee lor, ngam ngam..eee very fast ler..dunno why recently always feel like calling family..haha maybe now know how to 关心 dee..all the best ya sis and bros..really now my small small brain got the percentage of becoming overloaded..too much to think, and too much to be absorbed..aiks 난 터지기가 싫거든=.=

did it start from this week that I'm going to pay off for some rather 'harsh' decision made?!!2 simply treated subjects give tones of stuffs to memorize..wanna ask may I raise my white flag at this moment??lolz..nope now all going so well, no longer the 'fisherman' like in the last 2 sems dee..the only thing left, finding and taking out an unknown thorn hidden inside, causing such discomfort..cheers for the Heineken^^

又归于沉寂~~

如果你愿意一层一层地剥开我的心，
你会鼻酸， 你会流泪，
说的是洋葱
世事总是这样
凡事， 未必如表面所看到的
说话， 也未必如所听到的
人， 总喜顾左右而言其他
眼光投向你， 也许是在看你身后的事物或人
足球巨星罗纳迪尼奥的绝技： 望向左而把球传向右
凡事不能太快下定论。。

what made me so so happy^^

it's almost 3 in the morning..and I'm still here, too happy till can't sleep:P..tonite played 3 games of dota, all won..yea maybe I didn't contribute much to my team, yet still feel the satisfaction..shuang shuang shuang..act in the 2nd game I was like playing while listening to the live commentator from England: Derby vs Man. Utd..one late goal from the Reds' super7 sent MU to the top of league table^^get one homework done somemore right after game..

yea the whole day I didn't do much thing, cooked lunch, lepak at mates' room, played badminton..still, this kind of life, is the one which suits me the most..should appreciate this, can feel happy and satisfied even over tiny tiny stuffs..ok let's go to ibul, and hope can have a sweet sweet dream, even it won't become real also nvm:P..真的好开心：D

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finally..said goodbye to miserable and bothering days..
not to say having very perfect mood, but it's worth celebrating with beers^^
did a big bet, which will take me to the challenge, alone and with no help=.=
sigh of relief, after making the decision..
and the wound..
let's time heal it, can only get it bandaged up..
if can get ice break in 3 hours, what else can't be done??
cheers^^
as one said:"life goes on",
we are the one who're going to get life goes on..
3 months home is really missed
yet I need to be made stronger,
so as to counter all the misery,
and find back
something that I lost..
or first thing first
what to do tomorrow??a wednesday with no class:P

这算失意吗？？

只意在试探
却换回一句把我心击凉的话
梦碎了？？
或许该说从自我编织的梦惊醒，会到现实吧...

提得起，放得下
看戏都听多了
而今尝试把它实践于RL
某一时刻，像是有点成效
却不持久
搞了许久
原来是分了心
正所谓否极则泰来
所幸者乃得以松弛紧绷的脸
抹掉硬挤出的笑容。。。

erm..

wah d/c from dota..haiz nothing to do so drop by here..wondering shall I be optimistic facing this challenging sem?? even deciding what subjects to take also bothering enuf dee.. nvm lar just give it a bet.. feel nice that finally settled down dee.. been so kik, full of dissatisfaction for few days.. yea and finally can access internet already..actually still in holidays mood lar, but I'm sure things will get back on track soon.. crossing fingers, hoping that things keep going well, and never stop^^and tonite steamboat was nice, thrilling and funny, accomponied by a short blackout caused by short- circuit:P..now should smile and laughter lit and decorate up my life^^cheers for x-class in Wednesday morning..

finally get to know u!!!

no game dee..still too moody to go to bed=.=today learnt one new, and really heavy lesson!!! "Promise is promise, we need to talk about human beings."..so??"一诺千金??"how much it costs for one kati of promise?!!never had this kinda of 'quarrel' since I did with a teacher years ago..this time with an official somemore..in front of not only my friends, but seniors as well as juniors..will cost me alots, bring a very bad to us??don't care..a man looks kind and fine, but like shit!!! "don't be too selfish, we need teamwork!!!" now I recognized, really recognized the way u Malaysians work..simply promise something, but can do stuffs totally different with what been promised..u don't need to apologize and bow to me, no one blaming u coz u are just too kind..I can knee and kowtow back if u wish..답답해..无能的我, 连些许芝麻般的事也办不妥=.=feeling so so bad..after a sleep all will be fine??this time won't work dee=.=wake up tmr, the prob is still there, the dull is still there..all..when will my beloved spring come??