what a day...

it had been long time since I felt as down as I am feeling now, with the reason being unknown..
well, the day started brillant enough for me..
a friend who trying to live a sleep-early-wake-up-early lifestyle told that it needs great determination to practise this..
our Einstein claimed that no JPA student sleeps b4 12..
and last nite, I slept b4 12, woke up around 3:30 for a crucial-ever match..
for that, I woke up late and almost late to my thermo class, followed behind Sam, our lecturer head-to-tail into the class..
my fellow coursemates, hc, lionel and ch..the whole house woke up late too, and got to the class later than me..
Sam, our lecturer, said that he doesn't know what wrong with him too,so so early in the morning..
what happened this morning??to everybody..
yet, we didn't feel sleepy at all in our next class, a lecture which I use to fish in..
even if I did, only for 5 seconds..
and, since I got to school quite early, I managed to book a seat in library's study column..
I booked that seat for more than 12 hours today, even I had class to attend, I occupied that seat..
not bad that I studied for few hours there, and the progress was quite pleasing..
after Korean class and dinner, things went another way, a totally different way..
I started to feel guilty, started to feel noobie, started to feel...
things started to go wrong..
everything turned out to be 'serba-tak-jadi'..
and I felt down
lost my mind..
lost my confidence..
lost my optimism..
and felt like everything is going away from me..
NOOO..COME BACK!!!
argghhh..just don't want to enter exam mode in this condition and mood~~