나는 고대인, 붉은 노을~~

halfway through this very first sem in KU..so far, what I found out is that I did make a right choice to come here..still can't forget that few months ago, I was standing at the T-junction, looking at both the roads with a blur vision..for some, they just need to take one road and walk straight without the need to look back, but for me, I was the one who made the road diverged..already 21(now 22:D), still need others to decide for me..in fact, feeling of guilty and the responsibility was haunting me that time..even the thought of running away from the crowd..

well, whatever happened b4, it happened already..now, I'm KU student, of Mechanical Engineering Department..to be frank, being the only group that taking ABEEK here did make me feel lifted(not sure whether abit or ALOTS!).."We ABEEK, u no ABEEK", "u all ABEEK, we no ABEEK"..can be listened quite often..well, there's no point to make comparision, maybe just to release out some stress and tension..what made me feel my decision right??

first, my coursemates here..under one department, and not divided into classes as in college b4, we are more united than ever..there are 10 of us, and ppl say always meet Mechanical gang in campus cafeteria in such big group..the most important is that we help each other, seldom(or never) think of comparing(of coz there's still some, but let's not consider the exception)..there is no doubt that comparision and competition bring improvement, but is there still any point to compare at this stage??come'on man as fy said:"Life is too short to be miserable"..don't u feel tired, after comparing for so many years??we having fun, but can't say that we don't care about studies..we do feel panic when exams approaching..but other time, u can see us going crazy around, bursting into laughs, shouts with some bullshit..this is our Mechanical students, in KU..

second, the exams here..I'm never a exam freak, I hate exams..exams here are hard, but I like them..u r wrong if u think I did well in all my exams..maybe in certain subjects, but the reason I like exams here is that I can perform until 120% of my ability, it brings out some of my hidden potential(hope this is not the max yet:P)..I was panic, tension b4 exams, feeling scared, couldn't solve even one question from books..the only thing I can do is just praying hard that I can pass the exam and don't need to retake it..yet, during exams I still can come out with something(or some shit LOLZ)..my confidence boosted everytime after exam, even though I know my score won't be anywhere near excellent..still, this is the best that I can do.

now, I'm a real Uni student finally(I don't recogize myself as one when I was in college)..am I having and doing everything required, to be a complete Uni student??hmm now in the process of finding out, to make my Uni life a perfection..what else I lack of?!!I think I was a nerd last time, during primary school..but actually what I read the most are storybooks, novels and so on, but not textbooks..not sure whether ppl still nudge me as one now, but I can't deny the 'nerdity' just by saying that:"I got play dota ok, where got study all the time."..lolz..whatever it's, I will just say:"이거 내 스타일이야!".