tired..tired of what??

sometimes..really feel like no space to breathe..no space to let myself relax..ok I admit that my holidays wasted..but feel well with it..but then..2nd report from the same subject within one month..omg what's this??ya mayb should appreciate it coz making me so so hardworking..Thursday's Physics homework already finished by afternoon of Saturday..Material's report given yesterday almost half-done by Sunday..yaw this's the first time..but still wanna shout.."damn!!shit!!what lar!!...."better stop b4 I come out with more kasar one..bengang ler no mood..these few days kept doing things out of my will..dat zhoi ppl unintentionally,they don't even know was me though^^now..time to sleep which was 2am during weekdays for last few weeks,was made to 3am..of coz lar fishing become the main job dee in class..I didn't want that..ya ticket to go back for this winter holidays almost settled..a remarkable chaos happened during the process..zzz.. will have a one-week tour in Taiwan^^suddenly thought of my childhood 'san lui' ,who is now studying in Taiwan..so long didn't meet dee=.= so bad today only told my family about this..I asked whether I look bad but then didn't get the answer I want..lol too long didn't show myself to them dee..yet still be syok with the words from my Korean classmate..not offending him(we quite friend) but be syok with the truth he told..said my jaw gone=.=he isn't the first one who said like this..dun want this..I want the face last year went back to M'sia time..another Korean said I sure stay up to study somemore..damn I stay up but not study lar..what had happened??no other way but gotta eat more liao..welcome back supper..

getting more confused liao..there's one time when I convinced myself that I'm always optimistic.. can smile and laugh with ease..sometimes walking or bathing also can laugh like what nia.."nevermind sure can do it one"..what a sentence..but then sometimes..will get stress easily..so so extreme de..haha nvm got this idea..think it in a positive way..no one can guess ur mind with such characteristics..arrgh headache liao..let's get back to the report then..need someone to donate flesh to me..and teach me Maths as well coz haven't studied and done a single question at all=.=