茫然..

hmm..3rd day already since I got home..home sweet home after more than one year..have been quite tired though being at home..huh..mayb coz of one-week tiring, enjoyful, lepak Taiwan trip ended in an adventurous style..guess I won't be able to forget the last day of our trip..just got back to Taipei from Hua Lian around 9pm..and we went for the last dinner in Taiwan, steak^^everyone spent around RM30 or 40 for the last..yummy yummy..then as planned we had the whole nite non-sleep..street-basketball, cyber-cafe and norae-bang..guess mayb our trip so far was just too smooth and some challenges needed to be faced too..halfway while everyone enjoying, suddenly YH awake from sleep and threw out a question:"will station MRT station with lockers where we put our belongings be locked?"..oh man everyone like being struck with panic..wasting no time MP and KH went out for a check..ya the station was locked and will be opened mayb at 6am according to the Karao-ke staffs..omg our flight is at 8.20..after asking the hostel owner, we came up with some plans, and could do nothing but only waiting..finally we came up with the decision that we split into 2 groups, one heading for airport and reclaim all our luggages, and one waiting for the station to be open and take all the belongings we put there..thanks God that we managed to make it..and mayb it's a nice nice experience for the 2nd group to sit in a taxi driven at 160km/h:P..haha finally on the way back already..and guess what..before boarding the flight we met Chao Ge, our M'sian singer, quite famous in Taiwan..of coz got shot a photo with him lar..hehe taking the same flight with him also I think^^like MP said, after being scared out of wits for the whole nite, at least can be boosted with this..haha..true lar..all seemed like half-died dee but after shooting the photo like really refreshed a bit..ok here ended our trip to Taiwan..hooray everyone ^^

haha at home dunno what to do..everyday online not many ppl on also..checking results only lor..so far..no eye to see lar..

a post from Taipei

Christmas eve just passed..now is early in the Christmas morning, 1am..hehe having a nice time here..me, even most of us did something that we never did b4 I guess..what we did today??well since it's raining since the morning, so we postponed my plan to go to Yang Ming San and went for hotspring instead..but then guess the temperature was not that inviting till most of us can't bare to stay long inside, anyway it's just tremendous.. and then we went for lunch, at 3.30 something and around 4..ops..it ended up with that we had a steamboat buffet costed NT$220..can't tell whether that was our lunch??teatime??or dinner??lolz..wow it got dark so soon..during their so-called winter in Taiwan..then we went to Dan Shui Yu Ren Ma Tou, a port..ya it's very nice to shoot photos there..and a shopping followed afterwards..in Wu Fen Pu..yea all of us bought clothes..especially for the 3 gals in our group..gotta admit that it's like a heaven for gals to shop:D.. then we went to the landmark in Taipei, 101..the Christmas isn't that popular or hot here, compared to in Korea..had fun there, with photo-taking and else..ya now posting here while others went out for supper..and others travellers from all around the world chatting beside..wow paiseh compared to them , can mix around so well..haha mayb we came in big group so we just sticked to ourselves..anyway enjoyed very much till now..having fun and funny time, lots and lots..thanks to our groupmates kaka..k will stop posting here and wanna wish a MERRY CHRISTMAS from Taiwan^^

tell me why...

有句广东话说得好:"长命工夫长命做"..难道考试也要长命考吗??

为什么为什么!!!今天, 可是我打从上周就引颈长盼的一天..为什么事实都是如此残酷..为何还要困扰我多十数来钟??真想就此器械投降..或许换了别人, 人家会说迟点考倒好, 多点时间准备..实则不然.. 真想什么都不做, 明早进了考场就乱涂一通..就算考了个乱七八糟倒也甘愿..这样的考试, A+ 拿了又怎么样..只不过是拿来摆美而已..拿着父母`人民的血汗钱, 我在这都干些啥来着??同流合污吗??

it seems short, but still long away..

telling myself:"less than 2 days..then I'll be free of exams, the last one from all of us"..usually 2 days will pass very soon, but this gonna be a long long one..before today, I like very pitiful, still having 4 exams to go..but then 2 of them gone like that..without any special feeling..after submitting my CAD drawing at 12(took me 6 hours to do it), I felt a great relief..though obviously that I won't be able to get an 'A' for that, still it's the subject that don't need to study but the most stressful one..2nd exam of the day was the most special exam I ever had..guess what there're only 5 of us who taking it..me, Lionel, Rubhen, Ehsan and Mang..during exam sound of flipping over book can be heard clearly..it's an open-book exam..still after handing over the exam sheet to lecturer(a nice and kinda man^^), 5 of us looked at each other, with expression that I can't find a suitable word to describe..the same words:"I did do all what I can do..that's all"..after exam, lotte, lepak, and back to home..cooked simple fried mee, finished it and started dota..my performance was prettily bad, so was my mood, and my temper..here u can know that I'm totally under control of the exams..my lifestyle, my mood and everything..so..some ppl asked to go for movie..but same with some others, I rather stay in front of my com and continue our dota spree..consequently until now I haven't gone to bed, and the clock pointing at past 4, in ther morning..I feel myself very weird compared to others..being the only one who haven't finished exam, but still insisting wanna play game even some asked me to study..lolz..

thinking thinking..I think I'm absorbed into this kinda lifestyle totally..and kinda like it..sad that only these few days left, before I depart for a tour in Taiwan, and back to my motherland..intead of dota, we enjoyed Pudge War more today..and my house members,me, ty and jh shouted like hell while playing it..really a fun..with no stress of losing, but with laughter..and terribly, I tertidur while playing the last dota game of the nite, or morning more precisely..omg how can this kinda stuff happen..oh oh oh ..and whatever it is, whatever ppl say, now I only wanna live my life, and finish the exam just to finish it..and forget about this damnit semester..and..find back the brighter me..morning in the 4am morning~~

...

当太阳不再上升的时候,
明天也就不会到来
当地球不再转动,
时间也就会停留在这一分一秒
当人们尽情狂欢时,
也就更衬托出旁人的可悲

宇宙之间
能容下五湖四海
能装下天地万物
心灵之间
却装不下一个你`
容不下一个我
往往在一线之间
就决定了一切

鸟语花香`炎阳高照`落叶萧萧`白雪纷飞
走在纷纷攘攘的街头
仿佛天地万物都化为虚有
在茫茫人海中
寻找那个最好的'我'
所谓的"不打紧`没关系"
只不过是用来敷衍自己

feel like wanna war the whole world

정말 이런 걸 원치 않는다..자기 기분을 나쁘게 하는 것..아마 다른 사람의 기분까지 나쁘게 하는 것..이번 주에 진짜 그 교수 두 마리때문에 답답하고 미치겠다..뭐 지난 주에 다음 주 화요일에 시험을 본다는데 이번 주에 와서 또 바뀌었다..다음 주 목요일로.. 정말 이 'ㅅㅂ'하고 욕하고 싶다..괜히 진도 쭉 나가면 그 뿐 이지 범위도 안 주시다니..한 마리는 어떤 상황에도 보강 시간에 정상 수업을 하겠다고..다른 한 마리도 못지 않게 말도 안 되는 짓을 하셨다..다음 주 수요일에 떠날 샤릴에게 목요일 밤에 시험을 보게 하셨다..다들 시험이 다음 주에 할 거라 알고 있으니 공부 하나도 안 한 건 당연하지..갑자기 시험을 보라고..같은 날에 수업도 정상적으로 진행하고 다른 시험도 있으면서..

목요일은 참 이상한 날이었다..왜냐..아침 수업에는 교수가 말한 대로 노트정리 숙제를 검사했다..지난 번에 완전히 망쳤고 이번에도 희망을 가지지 않았다..근데 내가 한 숙제를 보시고 나서 아무 질문도 안 하시고 그냥 잘 했다고 하셨더라..그리고 영어로 훌륭하다고..참 내가 당장 무슨 말을 해야 되는지 모르게 되었다..이 과목 기말 시험을 잘 봤다 싶어서 점수가 잘 나오는 걸 바랄 수 있다..저녁에 보는 물리 시험..중간 시험에 벌써 망쳤으니 이번 기말에 준비를 열심히 하는 것도 아니다, 다른 친구에 비해..시험 문제는 아주 쉽다고 할 수 없지만 문제를 풀 때 예상외로 자신있게 풀었다..시험 후에 에이스와 얘기해 보니 내가 한 문제를 전혀 틀린 원칙으로 풀었대..그 때의 심정을 무슨 말로 표현해야 되는가??그냥 웃기만 했다..오차피 내가 시험 볼 때 자신감을 다시 찾았다..최선을 다 했느냐??그 걸 나도 대답할 수 없고 그냥 내가 할 수 있는 만큼만 다 했다..야 내가 계속 참고 싶지만 그래도 참지 못했다..만약에 좀 시하고 너무한 말을 했다면 정말 미안..스트레스를 받기 때문에 그런가 모르는데 맘에 오래동안 햇빛이 안 쪼인다..아마 심정을 평형하게 못하는 거다..남은 다 맘껏 웃고 놀 수 있으면서 내가 아직도 벗어나지 않는다..이런 건 나한테 더 심한 것이다..남은 다 할 수 있는 걸 내가 못하는 사실을 받기가 싫다..이 성격은 좋지 않은 걸 잘 안다..참...

오늘도 한 시험을 봤다..다행히도 내가 한 것에 만족하다..이런 자신감을 유지하고 싶다..벌써 늦은 것이지만 이런 느낌이 세상의 최고이다..그래 이번 시험 기간에 내가 스트레스를 거의 안 받는다..스트레스에 잘 대응해서 그런가..아무튼 해피 기말이 되었으면 좋겠다..다음 주에 시험이 끝나고 여행을 하고 고향에 돌아갈 거다..할 준비가 아주 많다..준비할 시간이 충분할 지 아직 모르는 거다..내일(토요일) 친구들은 파티를 한도고 계획을 세웠다..내가 아직 공부할 게 많이 남아 있다..그냥 시험을 하루만 잊고 같이 파티를 할 까??아니면 그냥 참여하지 말고 마지막의 노력을??모른다..친구아..정말 같이 안양천 옆에서 소리를 지르고 싶다..또 이렇게 늦게까지..정말 앞으로 어떤 날 갑자기 쓰러질 수도 있다..야야야 아자아자..울면 안 된다..그냥 사소한 일일 뿐 아무것도 아닌 것은..잠이나 자라!!!

another one..

dunno why recently keep listening to this song..'另一个自己' by Anson Hu and Stephy Tang..I used to keep listening to some songs, but this one is just..absorbed totally..I do like Anson alots..yet the part I like this song the most is the lyrics..the feeling wanna fly..wanna show a different side of mine..have confidence in myself..improve myself, until one day when I can reach the peak..believe that there's no where that I can't go, can't explore..everyone need to experience ups and downs then only the outcome will be appreciated, just like a rainbow always looks colourful and beautiful after raining..make our own fairytale, and make some precious memory for the future..something like this..yeah~~

today finished 2 exams..everyone seems like 100% serious with the final this time..but luckily I not being psycho..act I face the exam this time with little little hope..really thin and slim one..but then after the first( second act) exam I can finally exhale the sigh of relieve..guess what I can't finish the drawing today, for CAD..haha we're nothing compared to some Koreans, those who can finish in time and mantap enuf..didn't even feel sad..can't finish mah can't lor..no one cares..yea this is the spirit I missed so long..just like what Yu Han said(and she wrote in her status)..an illness called "bo rasa"..but for me, it's not an illness but it's kinda immunity..immune to stress??or desire to chase for glory..and the 2nd exam in the evening..glad to say that I did pretty well( if no unexpected stuffs happened)..as usual firstly damn blur while getting the question sheet..but then managed to finish it in style^^자랑:P..ops suddenly get the reason why am I immune to stress from exam dee..it's coz of homeworks, assignments!!!others all don't have any class during exam week, can focus 100% fire on their study..but me..class still on..and the nearer to exam period all the damnit lecturers suddenly so semangat to give reports..just finished one and still got one to go..tired, tired of homework!!!

Thursday..Physics exam will be taking place..and on what earth I still haven't touched that subject..almost everyone screwed up in the mid-term, so did I..and compared to others who treat the final exam of Physics as their only exam this time, all study and work so hard in effort to make the score better, I like tend to let it be, let the bad to be bad..aiks really need to find another 'me'..or the original 'me'??just leave it with no answer bah=.=

尾声了~~

平静而冷清的周日..把今天当成周日过的恐怕没人吧..想必都在埋头苦读吧..

一觉醒来, 十点正..哇 竟然睡了七个小时有余, 可破了数月来的记录=.=然而精力充沛的感觉全然没有, 脑袋倒是重重的..也许这就是所谓的 'overload'吧..打从早上起又对着那本书..懂了多少??不重要.. 或许真懂了些吧..才第一次和它打交道就须面对考试, 不可要求太多:P..至少这次在集中力上取得了进步, 虽然迟了些..

周末一向来都只呆电脑前` 懒得下厨只等被叫吃的我, 在更该'不理世事'` 分秒必争的此时此刻, 竟然撇开书本, 煮起饭`炒起菜来..不明所以, 也许对着书累了, 想找点别的事做做吧..相对于其他人, 我的时间表还蛮写意的, 该庆幸吗??只是当别人都在蹦蹦跳跳` 高嚷着 "过了"` 把滑鼠及键盘打得响当当时, 我却还在为着未完成的战役而熬..那滋味当真是想了都怕..

一'知己'对我说了:"同是天涯沦落人"..哈哈..怎说呢..都因无法击溃心魔而沦落..明知没剩多少时间了, 还在人天交战..唉.."你还没尽力, 就算不尽力你也行的.." 内心里又响起如此声音, 真是要命呀..这这这, 还只不过是个开始~~

over dee??but more to come..

darn..got tones of stuffs wanna write..a bad experience but memorable..haiz..

story started on Tuesday..the most lepak day of mine..but this week, since Maths exam will take place on Wednesday so I can feel the tension..back to home and my turn to cook..erm mayb some curry..as usual I'm too clumsy till nearly spoiled the whole pot of our dinner..luckily still can save it but dunno whether it was sux??super spicy?? or just normal:P..after dinner, something terrible that I had been worrying for time finally happened..my thigh, my back, my arms..almost every part swollen..in red.. yuacks..in moment got the feeling like dropped into hell..for heaven sake I got no more time and effort to bother over other stuffs than exams and tones of assignment..still I cooled myself down:"The symptom seems to be different..it's more like the symptom after I took alcohol..or mayb it's because of the heat I get from heater??since I sleep right on the heat spot and haven't had the feeling that it's already winter..it's must be."after 12 I lost all my concentration already..no point to keep myself to the book..instead I had DOTA till the sake of 4 in the morning..with 3 other crazy mates of mine..haih give the feeling like in vacation rite??

ok it's Wednesday..woke up with my body still itchy and in red..can't really make myself stood properly from my mattress..in the kitchen I knelt down helplessly..had the feeling of disaster happening..ya regretted dee..I'm punished for my immatureness.."you aren't an ironman..3++ hours of sleep equals to nothing dude.."ouch pain!!nvm one more night then can have a rest temporarily..it's ok MC..3 hours of Thermodynamics like normal..can concentrate on the lecture, though not 100%..something awaiting scared me out of my wits..already feeling like being burnt inside during lunch(lack of sleep giving its effect), the heat nearly strikes me faint while I entering classroom for another 3-hour-lecture..oh man it's worse than in summer..soon I knew my body did response dee, quite sensitive..and words from fellow Ehsan hit me hard..he said my face in red..how come??was just tired for the whole lecture..can't do any Maths exercise as I planned to do, for the coming up exam..did see myself in toilet..OMG OMG..looked like I'm drunken..all the symptoms.. calm down and we go to hospital tmr ya..managed to keep the condition from getting worse..and had our last exam for Maths..unlike what I heard from Rubhen, I wasn't blur when looking at the first question of the paper( for the first time out of 4 exams:P)..once I did have the feeling of giving up and nervous..actually it was my bad..coz I started my preparation for this exam quite early(my sole hope to score an 'A+' sadly) and found out that it's quite easy..and there started my ego, to leave the last part for the last-minute study..and did pay kinda painful price for that..I have no idea at all how to handle those questions in last part, which came out as the main part of exam questions..cried with no tear..though still able to did my best but let's just pray hard for an 'A+'..if not I will get none=.= last lecture from D. Hwang..he told us something..what he felt after lecturing us for one sem.. and so on so on..the funniest part.."you all got nothing to tell me??"everyone just kept quiet..act I got some to tell u sir..though I think our Daniel can teach better than u in this subject, but I did admit that u did u great job( to me only??lolz)..at least u were able to keep me awake, concentrated to ur lecture..u can make me understand the stuffs u taught whereby reading the book itself makes me blur over what I've learnt..haha..u are at the top in my lecturers' ranking this sem..and mayb 2nd or 3rd for the first year(after 이성오..and 황재호 mayb??)..and for the subjects under those 2 lecturers I did excellent score, so hopefully the rule works this time also:P..argghh another busy night..with the itch bothering somemore..sux!!!

felt better today..5-hour sleep made things better..wtf 민용기..tell earlier mah u not going to check the note today..ppl all burnt midnight oil to rush ur stupid so-called homework..why don't somebody just send u to the sake of hell?!!wow today quite macho also..finished the report just 30mins before the due-time kaka..and the itch strike again..lecture finished one hour earlier ya??hospital lor..I insisted that I want to see the doctor also no matter my prob is because of fever, flu or just a pure skin disease..and so kind of the doctor, listening to my description about my case..yeah my Korean not that bad also^^haha proud proud..ok will receive injection, as I expected..but ouch 2 on the usual part..pain~~and must have some pills over 3 days..yeah let's just swallow the pills and have a nice sleep in Materials class tmr:P..and until night time after finishing Physics class I was in half-concious condition..yet being cheered by the effect of the injection..no more redden face(like cartoon according to XY), no more scratching over my body.. yess!!!!!!wanna have nice condition for the coming exam weeks and holidays:)not mood to study tonite though..just dota lah tmr only start:P..

arrgghhh seems like my schedule for exam going to be disastrious again..got 3 papers on next next week..the week going to depart to Taiwan=.=shit lar like no time to walk around and get some nice nice souvenirs back dee..erm next week got 5 gua..dunno whether wanna face it with little hope or face with the giving up mood:P..just let it be lar:P..and now the x-sleep plan cancelled dee..will cost me alots de..luckily realised dee now than to experience it next week.. haha seems like I'm doing what baba asked from the very first when I came to Korea-->writing diary..is this a diary??dunno..but too sad he won't be able to read some of these also, since written in English lolz..eyelids getting heavier~~

back to the past~~

与时间赛跑~~

dunno why when the busier I am, when the time is limited, when I'm not allowed to lepak anymore, I always tend to be more lepak, waste more time..haha mayb I should be proud of this bad characteristic..for the first time, I sat on my chair, doing my notes without leaving it for hours??but then when I stood up time I found my butt and thigh stiff..isshh wondering whether the same thing will happen to others??those who sit on chair and study the whole day one..mayb they get used to it dee gut..did set a schedule for reports and revision..let's say must finish which work and study till which part by what day lar..yet it never be followed..ya with a report to be handed up next week haven't been touched..and I'm blogging here..what the.....

oh it's past 2 in the midnite..at least I can be cheered up by study of Maths and notes of Fluids which I did today??pls lar Maths..I need to get at least one A+ and u r the one..that I got hope and find it not so troublesome..now thinking of x-sleep during exam week..but then must be alert..whether it will bring the satisfying outcome??else my so-called 'SACRIFICE' will be in vain..and mayb with my core squeezed to dry..

today got in touch with my cousin that we didn't meet for years dee..she's studying in Taiwan..but all on her own..she works and earns all her expenses, even her schooling expenses.. heard before from baba mama that her mum(my aunt) just don't need to worry bout her daughter..months before she went to US somemore..though she's already my idol since I was a child..now I salute her more and more..I will never be able to get behind u, though once I thought I did..hehe it's my trip to Taiwan few weeks later made me to get in touch again with u..it's my bad..but then do inform me if u coming to Korea..treat u gau gau if it happens( as long as I haven't graduated and finished my course here:P)..and get one nudge from a friend of mine.. warned me must reach SG. B on 29th Dec..since he's leaving for campus on the next day..haha surely will be able to do that..c ya that time..

story of fool again..it's a rojak feeling..sometimes will think I'm smart and able to poyo in certain aspects..sometimes:"I'm not bad also what, compared to others."..sometimes:"I'm so so stupid, on what earth am I going to compete with others?"everybody knows this is something to do with confidence..ya when boosted with confidence, can easily feel the momentum like unstoppable..but confidence is just like a balloon..confidence will leak away pretty fast, like a penetrated balloon..ending of the story:"I'm not really a fool, but I wanna be one."

still can't get past=.=

累了
在某一瞬间
倒是充满了斗志
无可否认 我也想去了解
其中的奥妙` 高超`神奇
这些这些 都是促使当初的我做出如此决定的因子
无奈的` 可悲的
它是短暂的` 昙花一现
如若一天有四十八小时
也许` 真的也许
我会作困兽之斗

说穿了
我只不过是个永远都挣不脱那 '怕输'枷锁的普通小伙子
我也想耀武扬威
我是赞不得的
一被赞 我会飘飘欲仙 仿佛 on top of the world
我也想有用不完的 resources

站在前面的中年人
口沫横飞` 双唇相碰的频率高得超乎想象
一句句的高丽话` 以波的形式萦绕在耳边
无奈的还是冲不破耳边形成的无形墙
缘何
思绪已经飞到了九霄云外` 远在十万八千里外的某地....

(2007年 11月 30日 기계재료학 수업에
作白日梦동시에 쓴 끌....)

Am I a fool??

sometimes will come to this kinda question.."why r u so so stupid??".."r u a fool?"..sad that everytime can't give a single answer to it..

questions like these also can't solve..a simple fact, theory also can't understand..what lar!!!
keep doing like this bring no good, not even a single little reward or feedback..why keep doing it?? sometimes it brings harm somemore..r u such a fool that dunno to stop even knowing that u r actually knocking door of an empty house??no one will answer u!!!

ya it's easy to say:"let things go when it's hopeless."..tell you how many times dee don't waste ur time anymore..but then..mayb too stubborn, a stubborn coward..why don't u go and give everything in one bet??coz u r a damnit coward..u scare that failure will be waiting there..u scare u will lost everything..so u rather do it in a coward way, even knowing that it won't bring u the thing u longing for, and will never bring u to the destination..

ahew u stupid coward fool=.=

另一个自己

我想飞 想飞
我相信没有不能闯的天地
鼓起勇气 看得起自己
如果将来没回忆
今天我还有什么可珍

我要别人能看见 另一个自己
只要你跟我一起坚持到底
打造自己

想飞 想飞
我相信没有放不下的心灵
我要寻找另一个自己 另一个自己
永远不可思议
像海浪经不住的原动力

我也能承受我怕你
哦 这样太刺激
打造自己
走下去直到一天
我的最高人气
另一个自己

想飞 想飞
我相信没有不能闯的天地
我要寻找另一个自己
另一个自己
经历 风雨
才能够体会彩虹会有多美丽
我要寻找另一个自己
另一个自己
比梦想还要大

让命运来回答
我们一起写一个童话
比天空还要大
让心跳来说话
让灵魂都净化

爱自己
我要将来有回忆
我要世界看到新的自己

뭐라 해야 되는지...

이상하게도..하루에 가장 많이 하는 일이 뭔가??호흡 말고 먹는 일이야..몇 번이나 먹는가 말도 마..한 두 시간마다 한번 먹는 걸 걸..너무 심하다..누군가 해법 좀 가르쳐 줘~~

어젯밤도 영화를 봤다..'쏘우 4'라는 영활..공포편으로 분류해도 될 까??사실은 무서움이 하나도 없고 그냥 끔찍한 거뿐이지..작년인가??'쏘우 3'을 봤기는 했는데 아무 이상한 느낌도 없었고 웃기까지..이번에 한 장면에 왠지 토하고 싶은 느낌이 생겼더라..왜 왜 왜??그래도 대단한 영화였다..아 이번에 새 극장에서 봤거든..멀기는 좀 한데 크고 화려한 극장ㅋㅋ

시험은 이주일만 남았나??아직도 헤매고 있다...요즘 오랜만에 '생활적인' 생활을 하고 있으니 다행이네..계속 이러도 싶다..왠지 모자란 것 좀 있지만..분명히 뭘 바라고 있는 거..잘 안 되어도 괜찮아..희망을 가지고 살아라 목준아..이 세상에서 다른 찾아 다닐 만한 거 무수히 많아..만족을 느낄 줄 알아야 진정한 행복이겠지...참 뭘 좀 쓰려고 했는데 생각 안 나네..정말 늙은가 보다..

worth a thought...

all these from something I heard from someone...

hmm..guess I quite used to stay in a group(or lepak with) of Malays friends..and surely u can hear about something that u seldom, or never hear b4..Syidi, one of the macho guy in our batch..he's kinda nice man, with humour..today he talked bout his study in college, and his plan for the coming final..ya since we 're in different major there's no chance to know about their development..one by one..all the subjects were mentioned..with the scores in mid-term, and the mininum condition to do a comeback during the final..don't wanna deny that I have a feeling of paiseh, re-thinking of the scene happened during the afternoon, though I just responded with some jokes and laughs this afternoon..seriously such plan never occur in my mind, not even for a single second..and very shameful to say that none of the subjects that I have the confidence to score an 'A+'..haha comeback is just like a term used in football or sports event for me..

and another thing..he said mood and spirit to study like being affected abit...guess what??coz there's no gal..zzz..but understandable..study for pride..just that he wants pride in front of gals..kaka never think of this kinda theory:P..secondary school time we fought for prizes, anugerah..never tired of trying to get more prizes than others:P..so so realistic..then Physics story followed..ya a sad story for almost all of us..just let it be a history to forget^^at nite class being lectured gau gau by the lecturer somemore..critisized so teruk..I hurt de lor hehe..fire me lor since I never complete my job as a student, to study hard as u said..ya study is a job for student..but it will be different case for scholars(lolz I'm not blowing any trumpet here and be boasting the status!!)..just that so hard can grab a chance to study overseas..it'll be a waste if u don't take this chance to experience something different, different system, different life, culture and etc. during the period u r abroad..life-living is also one kind of study..

talking about Wed..finished Maths exam only mah..why after that got the feeling like holidays only..went for dinner..took so long time to finish..then after dinner lei..can accompany our 배달 guy xy go here go there..kaka..how nice will it be if everyday can do stuffs like that..loafing around..no syllabus, assignment and homework pressing..though in a chilling winter nite, having an ice-cream, no matter indoor or outdoor is kinda enjoyment..life life life..

麻木不仁..真爽~~

提早降临的冬天, 我太低估你了..还差点儿因此废了双手=.=除了白吟吟的雪, 冬天还有值得令人期待的吗??也许..'浪'`'荡'点儿也没关系..至少能拉近彼此..折腾` 吊了大伙儿一天的胃口, 终于还是放榜了..正如所料, 是烂得可以..或许浆吧..应该杀鸡还神??再差也想象中来得好..哪怕是一点点..然而, 失去的, 正如泼出的水, 挽也挽不回..该叫做无力回天吧..如不是那么在意笔身外之物, 倒是没什么值得悲哀`怨天尤人的..就让它随着秋季 成为过去吧..毕竟也痛过了..甚至怀疑了:"年头做错了决定??真是致命呀.."..弃械投降了吗??不晓得..应句老话:"休息是为了走更长的路.."..于我, 路在何方呢..

厌倦了`也享受了解陌生`再由了解到陌生..自身`周遭..都如变幻风云般深不可测..明知近不得..却硬是要身陷其中..却是为了什么呢..是不是见到的`接触的越多,就越容易迷迷失掉最单纯` 最简单的自己..说到了心坎里去了..人类这复杂的动物, 总是有把事情弄的极其复杂的倾向..今天, 分明跟自己说了:"算了吧"..明天却又再牵肠挂肚, 久久不能自已..叹道:"不过弱冠, 何来如此多的感触!!"..答案..何处去找..就让它成为不解之迷吧..又有谁人会费劲去找`做这吃力不讨好的苦差事..

六十出点头..并不是那么在意..而是..抚心自问..倒底都在干些什么..抬头一望..墙上贴着: 别忘了你是谁!!我是谁??不下于十来个的化身..倒底化成了哪个..'一身是胆', 满肚苦水倒还差不多..又向谁吐呢..笑, 是真心在笑..哭, 也是放怀痛哭..

双眼..透视力越来越强..有些事, 看明了凭添苦恼..有些看了哭笑不得..有些则让你不免抿嘴一笑..跟你会心一笑的, 也是自己..自言自语..所言所语的, 都是些在对话中找不到的料..一些不可低估的料..

分针已经走了一圈有余..就这不足千字的..未免也太慷慨了吧..把光阴免费给了谁呢..

a just just...

act nothing special to post also..just that dunno what to do..at this baby nite..supposed to be busy from now on..haiz..the weather just don't allow me to have a walk outside..even walking alone is much more better than facing the LCD screen doing nothing..

ya one report handed up today..but things not finished yet..can someone find an excuse for me..excuse for what huh??excuse not to care..excuse to let it be..nothing dee I'm free from the stressful and miserable exam period dee..but then still feel at a lost..argh it's so challenging when u can't find out what's going wrong..when u got feeling like this u will be able to understand the meaning of '답답하다' fully^^SP ar I wanna chat with u...guess u r darn busy with ur study gut.. hmm today I come up with this:


"when u feel there's a hope,
it will be put off by something in no time
when u feel despair,
a ray of hope will be shining there, luring u to carry on
it takes no time to get a wound,
but takes long time to get it recover
a small strike will make a shining point dim,
but it will be a tall order to get it shining back
cups of beers can make u drunk,
but hours of sleep always needed to get awake back..."

rules of nature??who said that?!!


weekend..tmr nite's annual dinner..most prepared something for that..ya mayb it acts to give a short break..luxurious venue..well make-up mates..delicious and inviting food..haha will be a great Saturday nite..ops must be alert..temperature will be killingly low..and windy..ouch a big challenge..as preparation for the coming winter..Sunday..time for our Physics results to be announced..haha I asked my roomie dee to tell me the announcement of the results only at the late nite..a reasonable move to keep my mood for the day I guess..hehe..

half of November passed already..2007 also approaching its end..one more month then will be going back..it's too early to think of plan to have in M'sia..mayb needa plan for the one month left in Korea gut..aiya really dunno what to do now=.=here wanna post an advice:"don't underestimate the bad effect of insufficient sleep!!!"..ya for few weeks dee I barely slept longer than 6 hours per day..continuously..b4 this the only effect felt is keep fishing during class..it won't matter coz mayb the failure to understand what the lecturers talking about is also a factor..but this week..even cycling in cold wind I can feel the tireness too..freshness gone though just woke up hour ago..argghh..and last weekend..guess what??can fall asleep sitting on my chair one hour after waking up..and during class..instead of drowse..got a feeling that my inner side like being squeezed..very hard..and painfully..really scare of one day will loss consciousness like dailou, collapsing in a big crowd..I don't want that to happen!!!

cheers^^

finally had a weekend that can be called as 'W33K3ND'..I'm released from all binds..Friday..long awaited Friday..ya Friday nite party was nice..everyone finished exam dee..and all with nice nice mood I guess..swt Xein didn't drop even one little drop of tear..others did so so many things for her..got vege 돈까스, 호떡, jeli..haha some been very busy since afternoon preparing all these stuffs..and what did I do??went for a shop in Lotte since basketball cancelled..and went home cleaned up my dirty dusty messy desk:P..for 3 weeks didn't tidy it up..exam mah hor..야 야채 also 20 dee now..more and more..our batch really nice..so so nice..but then..I paiseh only after listening to 전자 ppl's description bout their course..what am I doing man in 기계??studying gak??nothing ler compared to others..hehe..stayed there till almost 2..kaka cold cold autumn midnite..不是盖的哦..

Sat..the whole day packed with activities..firstly I wish a very very late 'Happy D33pavalli' to all the Indians here..and thanks for the open-house..the tremendous food^^5 of us went for shopping in Myeong-dong straight afterwards..so long didn't travel out of this area dee..can't remember when was the last time since I had my last shopping..unlikely, we guys went for stuffs in our list..for the first time, I really feel the satisfaction of spending money like water.. haha very shuang..syok..aigh if money can be auto-refilled also..dunno whether is '乐极生悲' anot an accident happened on the way back..luckily it's nothing serious:P..auch my Sat not yet over..joined a movie somemore..crazy liao..siau liao..back from shopping..panic and frus over troublesome com..dota..and rushed for movie..midnite movie..arggh 3 only got home..a tiring day..

miserable Sunday morning..reformatted com..studied nothing except getting my Physics 80% done..isshh keeping troubling me only this com..even after reformatting..big big possibility can't play dota dee after this..sad:'(..why I screwed up my mid-term wor..if not I surely change a new com next year=.=k lar tmr a new new week..and surprise waiting^^

out of control...

this week was just weird..until I can't find a word to describe..exam finished..double-birthday party on Tuesday nite..just wanna say hope that u did enjoy that 꼬치..and dunno why recently got so much things to talk about the Maths class..during the party,the nite before the class, we just talked about the lecturer..of coz lar mostly negative stuffs..but then he appeared to be different during this week class..he started to recognize and call our name, testing, keeping everyone on nerve..wow what kinda different class..and he did offend some of us..and with this harsh abit sentence:"how did u all get the scholarship?"..ok I did doubt how I get it also..but kesian for others:P..kasar..anyway did enjoy the class with different atmosphere^^and wanna post a message to Design of Machinary Elements' lecturer:"I want the re-test:'("..these few days keep questioning myself..why are u acting so extremely..I did act very weird rite..seems like harder to understand, to catch my own will and action..damn lar kena jampi gut..one or two weeks only after exam..the syllabus like flashing only..the more lecture I had, I found out more things that I should know but I didn't know..haha nice lar the feeling of emptiness like this..hmm look forward for this Saturday..time for an outing liao..there's like no fun in this darn Guro-gu.. here wish those birthday guys and gals:"EPY BIRTHDAY(^)"..to MP, JT and Xein..and for big big bro and LY, the coming up..anyone to start the countdown to the end of this sem and the day going back home??start start start!!

迟来的终于...

"千呼万唤始出来, 犹抱琵琶半遮面"
等了许久
终于`终于解脱了
然而
布满暇疵的过程
无论结局如何完美也是宛然
更何况是一个绞心的结局

人 有个安身之窝
极须寄托的 却又何处为家呢
无处为家处处家吧

曾经
看似布满荆棘的路
跄踉数下也就趟过了
理该平坦无阻的康庄大道却把人摔了重重一交
摔得皮开肉绽`久久无法爬起
也许需要一旁伸出的手
自己的左手
扶起右手
不是还有双脚可供立足吗

微带冷意的秋风
适时地把一切吹成过眼云烟
却刮不走留下的痕迹
曾经的梦` 豪得可以的凌云志
安息吧
来年立春之时
盼再相逢
而不堪回首之往事
唯有叹以一声: "唉~~~"

送来一度的温暖

felt some warmth today..there's a knock on my house door while studying..an uncle standing outside, holding a tool in hand..it's so stupid of me who didn't even recognize that he's the owner of the house I'm staying now..b4 this all the stuffs we handled with his wife..and I so dumb, asked him how he came..stupid..yea he came just to fix my door, to make it tighter so that it won't be that cold during the coming winter..felt gratitude and touched^^haha I can only help with pressing the glass for him to do his work properly..thanks thanks thanks..no matter it works anot..the warmth is there..lolz..

yea finished study for tmr exam liao..dunno lah how it's going to be..just enter the exam hall..sit down and spend one hour there lah..the outcome will be different story..yet it's not the exam which bothering me for the whole weekends..reports, assignments, homeworks..arrghh..can only have back life like before after finishing all those=.=missed the call from family while I'm dotaing..guess they pissed off with no response from me..auch gotta find an excuse liao when speaking to them next time..just don't have mood to call back today..aigh..baba mama must be sad, having a son like me..

recently quite bad-tempered..bad mood..emotional..until I even can't believe myself..before this no matter how my mood is, extremely excited, extremely down or else..I managed to control it.. didn't show in front of ppl..and was quite proud of this..but then sad to say things changed.. I did show my bad temper sometimes..bursted in front of others..sorry ya to those I did offend .. hopefully things will change back during the coming week..just finished dota just now..ya of coz I lost the game..kept cursing during the late stage of game..still feeling the frustration..something wrong with me dee..my brain just vacant, looking at the darn damnit Physics book in front..I just can't go to bed like this..must cool down first..and..wondering what kinda of day will tomorrow be..anyhow next week is going to be great..exam will be over for me..thought I'm the latest to have it finished..and will be a party-week also I guess..really need this kinda things to boost me up..hmm the posts recently all so so negative, despair and miserable..and hope this will be the last one..the last one..


(haha just watched a darn funny video^^now can't stop laughing pulak:P..thanks wor to that guy who found it..kaka)

不该这么累..

花开花落
花谢花开
花, 是美丽的
到了凄美的深秋
也都毅然在开得最美的时候
选择调谢
以期寒冬之后 立春之时
重新散发魅力

也许
人也如此
有盛开` 调谢之期
也许
该适时地感到满足
忘掉该忘的` 放下该放的
过于追求
可真会累坏了自己


别再直直叫苦` 四处投诉了
知足常乐呀 你这大笨虫` 小傻蛋~~

over but not yet over..

a 40-minute exam kept most of us from DOTA..a 40-minute exam kept all of us sticked to the super-thick textbook..a 40-minute exam made us frowning..no matter how that exam is, it's over now..but not yet over for me, 'thanks' to the exam which been postponedto next Monday..nothing to say bout the Maths exam..so so and ok je lor..glad to see everyone happy back, being cheerful again..but all like over-high liao..I think I made no difference, went crazy just like others..yeah weekend weekend~~

and hor..the weather really crazy ler recently..mayb should stop cycling to school liao..sad sad later can't have any sports liao lor..winter already knocking the door..promise dee to give myself a long long sleep..but still..I hang up till this late again..haih..

rAZOR Lightning R3L3van~~

long time didn't use dee..scourage's Razor..MC's Razor..k I teach u all how to use it..firstly must get POWER THREADS..so that u can attack with lightning-speed..then ar..get a Maelstrom..a combination of Hammer and Boots of Elveskin..with this item u have the chance to release a 200-damage chain-lightning..dunno the percentage lar..then with these 2 equipment can farm quite insanely liao..get an Eaglehorn afterwards..to build Mjolnir, which allows u to release chain-lightning also..with higher chance and more damage I think..never memorise the details..and remember to use the static charge..u will see the hero rounded with fast-spinning charge..whereby the enemy who hit u may get some damage..auch quite painful also..then ar..I recommend hyperstone and Buriza..whereby u can attack faster(much more o) and got higher damage..got critical strike somemore^^u know how giler Razor can farm??just now I killed almost 400 creeps..wow..but then quite frustrated also..coz I like fighting alone since others like didn't have the desire to push and end the game earlier=.=ma de I still got tones of Maths exercises to do lah..still need to attack 9:9 oo..imagine how busy I am..u all still enjoying dragging the game long!!! nevermind I forgive lah..

this afternoon almost lost my USB..I forgot to plug out after connecting it to computer in school..luckily still can find back..haha can't express my mood that time..失而复得..the feeling is just nice..like a sunshine shining in my heart^^tmr maths test..ok lah my preparation..at least I did try to do..haven't touched the subject that the exam will take place on Thursday..now just simply enjoy only since lost of hope dee..tired of fighting already:P..hmm got no idea how to face Physics lecturer on Thursday..but then after his class I sure will call DOTA..act I kesian u all didn't play for 'so so long' dee..I pui u all play lah:P..then weekend again liao..

what to do during weekend??need to call family liao..gonna tell them how teruk I did in mid-term..and see how their response will be??ask me not to care??or scold me like hell..u all dunno me..I am not smart..so don't always expect too much oo..hmm this Saturday Arsenal will take on Man United at Emirates..glory glory MU let's get a win and climb over the damnit f***ing gunners..must find a way to watch also anyway..Lionel u must figure out something oo..TVU player^^

today get the air ticket dee^^cost me 550000 Korean Won o..pain..hehe 22nd Dec will be in Taiwan..for one week..then by 29th noon will reach KLIA liao^^guess all miss me very much hor..I dunno whether I miss u all that much also:P..so still got half day to loaf, travel around in KL b4 getting home..my lovely home..my lovely bed and my bike..must go Xiaugu's house to see see..haven't been to her new house..less than 2 months..this darn disastrous 2nd sem will end..wah think so long de..something I already know..I know..I know..I know..very nice~~마리서사 (Mary 敍事) - 너 없인 행복할 수 없잖아..very nice also..and good night to this nice nice nite..

lalala~~

last day of this darn dull week..and did have half day full of dullness..only half day:P..haha once I told that I have no mood to do anything, but only breathing..damn stupid..this time without any inspiration, decided to kill off the another me..that wasn't me..the real me was trapped somewhere else, in another dimension, for few days..yea by watching some damn funny programmes, I started to laugh(wakaka)..suddenly my little world, my small small room like became brighter than ever..yea welcome back MC..can't understand maths??who cares..at least I know I had understood it when lecture time..exam??only a tool to get pride..and some money mayb..but all those never worth my wonderful life..my so-called 'bright' personality^^I dunno whether this is only temporary or else..at least I became myself back again..no matter whether I did try my very best for the exam(better than I did for last sem,mayb), no matter how..all already became spilt milk..and it's silly to cry over it..luckily this noon didn't let my eyes flooded..if not there'll be no way back already I think..tmr never come??I hope tmr is Friday, when I can be crazily lepak again:)

it's time to change...

did hesitate whether want to write this anot..a week full of failure, disappointment, dullness..ya ppl used to forget unhappy stuffs, as soon as possible..but everyone need to get past themselves to do that..ya it's over already..last week, I was the one who still loafing around, lepak, promoting stressless exam..when exam approaching, suddenly I feel like stress is from everywhere, every corner, and almost every ppl as well..day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute..yea can say that my preparation for the 1st exam, Mechatronics was not that bad, and the exam can be considered as a bright start..of coz confidence will be boosted, and the 2nd paper,Fluids is one of the exam I have the most confidence..k the paper was easy, should have been a nice one if I didn't modify my answer..ahew got blurring Math class straight after the exam..no mood during the class also..well the result was lots of question marks, lots of stuffs to catch up for next week test..somebody help me~~mayb my theorem is right..I will screw up the exam which I have confidence and do relatively well in those I was-was or scare of..2nd day of exam was a disaster..for the Fluids subject everyone need to go through a so-called 'report check'..and I got a question that I don't even understand what the lecturer asking about..after class I felt like at a lost..crossing road also like ignoring all the passing cars..mayb I was expecting for a horn to wake up me, to pull me back from that 'blackhole'..for my 3rd paper, I studied not much, since the scope was given, and is a relatively easy subject..but after the little downfall, I no longer dare to have any confidence..and was scared to death when I had a black-out totally when facing the first 2 questions..relieved still managed to get back in form, and had all answers same with fellow Lionel..pray both of us get full marks^^being cheered up a bit, a disaster-like downfall came..as what I saw there're only 3 ppl with smiling face after a physics paper..I'm sad(or glad) to say that I most probably will get a z3ro for that paper..imagine hours b4 was extremely happy with the previous exam..from heaven to hell..only Lionel can understand my feeling gut..arrhh..for the dinner after that we did have little bit of cocktail..and thanks that my alcohol supply was 'scattered' around, somewhere I dunno where it's..if not I might have made myself drunken??(lol for heaven sake)..even if a can of 'HITE' will do..the amount of alcohol u can take without getting drunk is propotionally to ur mood..mayb I should have a dart also like JT does..for the last paper of the week, nothing much I can do..tried my best to kaji some calculation..and it didn't show its face in the exam paper..yea I had not enuf time to do all the questions, and did not that perfectly..but it gave me some satisfaction..mayb anything will look nice, compared to the paper with 0-score..and on the way back from exam..I was smiling uncontrollably..like paralysed..thanks to the group-dinner..I really had a nice time there^^and to 허준:"please don't ask me whether going to study anot everytime u talk to me!!!"..on my way home I met them(my classmates), just spent their time having alcohol..I'm going home for DOTA, not the darn damnit study!!!exam over dee ok?!!aigh even after exam also I stayed up very late..even if I am tired already hour b4 I slept..mayb going to sleep with a extremely tired brain will give me no chance to think of other stuffs b4 I fall asleep..and thanks for the hearing and the advice..now mc = mAGNIFICENTLY cOLLAPSE=.=

忙中偷闲..

说是忙中偷闲
其实不然
若不是太过放纵
也不会落得如此地步

功力又深了一层
相比起之前
如今就算看着他人如何打拼
我也依然自我
教科书永远成不了我的挚交
抱歉...就算你的魔法降服了无数的人
我仍要摆脱`跳出你可及的范围
寻找一个任我遨游`长醉下去的世界

十月中旬
深秋了
秋天倒是蛮美的
但之不过是凄美的美
美得让人深有感触
秋季的我
长吁短叹
多愁善感
若能叹上二十四小时的气
该是多么的写意啊

看不到时机
就象某人所说
捉对时机
事半功倍
否则 处处碰壁
犹如昙花一现的时机
可遇不可求啊


'百忙之中' 尚能在这 '不知所云', 能否羡煞旁人??
另类的室友, 让我不至过于压抑, 也感到庆幸^^

amazingly

nowadays...

the weather is amazingly cold...
the wind is amazingly penetrating...
the time is amazingly fast...
the exam is amazingly close...
the circuits are amazingly annoying...
my notes is amazingly long...
peoples are amazingly stress...
the DOTA heat is amazingly irresistible...
the cushion of my chair is amazingly hot...
the CPU is amazingly noisy...
I'm amazingly hardworking today:P...
beer is amazingly tempting...
ears are amazingly painful...
brain is amazingly overworked...
eyelids are amazingly heavy...
tomorrow is amazingly scaring than ever...
only...
the night is amazingly nice^^still~~~

blessing??or disaster??

everything has its both sides
sometimes, it'll be just great to you
sometimes it'll bring you down
till the lowest point..
it all depends on your point of view
sometimes it'll look totally different at another angle
don't mind too much to be weird or different from others
the so-called difference might turn the dilemma in front into a straight, wide highway


when it's time for others to have party, to enjoy
me
it's so pity of me who still need to dig inside the book with my little head
the unfinished battle, the final battle lies ahead
the only one, the different one
so..
going to fight joy and laugh with dullness and tension??
you'll never win with the stupid way
it's joy to chase dullness away
it's laugh to get tension loosed..
you'll be part of joy after the battle
will be sweeter??since you suffer more
and
you can have your great time while others having tension
blessing, can be disaster sometimes
disaster can also be blessing as well
make no complaint, then you'll be blessed
that's the way, the way out of no way^^


(P/s#warm~~killed off the cold which froze my face, stiffened my hands..haha what kinda experience of cycling in such weather^^kaka recharging my brain..drained to dry=.=)

wakaka:)

笑
无缘无故的笑
莫名其妙的笑
从由心生的笑
那是 衷心的笑~~

微笑,
源自满足
欢笑,
源自欢愉` 幸福
狂笑,
源自大喜大悲` 发泄
苦笑,
源自无可奈何

人因喜事而笑
无可喜之事??
笑笑又有何所谓呢??
总比哭胜过百倍吧!!
笑一个~~

haha guess what??today on the way to class..I realised something weird with my face..I was smiling without any reason, or funny scene..lolz..suddenly felt my face also brighter, and mood also nice..guess should be a great start to my busy Wednesday gua..indeed..today 2 of my 3-hour class all finished one hour earlier^^the funniest thing happened during Maths class..as usual most of us blur blur only when lecturer was teaching..but then I felt more confident over last week and this week's lesson..seriously I will say sorry if u ask me to solve questions or do calculation but I think I can understand quite lots^^then there's one part..which the lecturer explained with light-like speed..arrghh can't understand even 10%..but that period was that one when I kept laughing..inside my heart maybe..firstly, I dunno what he talking and writing about also..really no idea on what to do..looking at him, and some blur blur faces around me, the only thing I can do is to laugh:P..苦笑 I guess..with KH sitting behind me also pissed off dee, cursing..(maybe not syok the lecturer explaining some terms in English gut..his English level:P)..then doing notes at home time..mou la la blamed by ppl pulak..hng!!anyway..17th Oct a smiling day^^nitez..

到底要擁有多少才足夠？

"how much u want to get then only can feel satisfied??"..title of an article read yesterday..yea it's mainly about materialistic belongings..but then there's no point to talk about that..still ppl can keep demanding, asking for more..comfort, pride, dream..and lots more..it's true that desire makes everyone works hard, tries to get better..just that some still won't feel satisfied even their achievement is remarkable enough..come'on looks at others..those who can't even get half of what u got..be satisfied to make ur life brighter and 'prettier'..first I wanted to write something here to let out all my anger and dissatisfaction one..but let it be lar..at least the change gives more time to prepare for it..let you go this time..I admit that I was hot and bengang after class..kept cursing all the way home while cycling..so stupid to treat myself so bad..为何那么跟自己过不去呢??k now happy back liao..the MSN Messenger window is just like a pool of stress..I just hope I'm in different nation with them..and I trying to be since last week^^kinda working..things will come at the time..but I believe '船到桥头自然直' more lor..haha during this supposed-to-be-busy week, I can sit on the chair, look at the LCD screen, with book opened in front but do nothing..dunno which book to read, what work to start first..wear headset until ear painful dee..but still..nite is still nice and 'young'..2:15..did welding for 2 hours++ made my eyes nearly become only line, muscles ther tired..ok since Mecha exam postponed dee weekend only study..report??later..I'm kinda talented in learning how to relax and pamper myself:P..hmm then..here come my love, Tuesday^^let's hooray together xy..and hope everyday is a lepak day^^

a short break

k lar let's take a short break..so come up with this short short post..Sunday, a day that I hate the most..coz the next day going to school again=.=well so far quite satisfactory also lah..from morning till now I kept studying, gaming, napping and eating..did an experiment just now, cooking my own lunch..hehe cooked spaghetti for the first time??erm quite satisfied lor with it..my own cooking:P..yummy yummy^^haha idea stucked again coz I just came out from dotaing..cham lar got mood to dota pulak..

untitled~~

should have posted this last nite..but then I was too too busy last nite..from 11 to 3 non-stop..needa go to Embassy for Raya this morning somemore..haha I have no idea how to describe yesterday, Friday..yea should be happy de since the next day will be Saturday..yea my mood was 'boasted' at the start of the class..I got back my report which was submitted last week and get full 5 marks for it..wah semangat dee..who knows..for the first period of my Material class I wasn't as sleepy as usual..can focus almost 100% to the lecture..just that I can't even get 1% of what the lecturer talked, even with almost-full attention..with my fellow classmate, Ruben, we kept looked at each other's face and showed each other some kinda expression..I can't find a word to express that kinda expression exactly, should say as crying or grinning??suddenly I came up with a superb ridiculous idea..I sent SMS to dunno how many ppl..and kept replying mssg only at the first few minutes of second class..anyway 'hooray' for setting my own new record..sending 10++ SMS in less than 10 minutes I think..hopefully won't cost me too much^^after final class of the day, I was in library to do my damnit Physics homework..why did alone there ler..coz don't want to keep asking others..sigh that was stucked totally after finishing 2 questions..nvm we study the chapter first..for heaven's sake the words blurring my vision..feeling like going to faint, collapse..dop ended up with me taking nap in the almost-deserted study part..zzz..


had a nice time during the raya party..really..the food..the atmosphere..just that like there're something stucked inside..have no idea what it's..lol let it be..oh ya have no talent in taking nap..napping on the chair like 'discharging' more than recharging me=.=haha hate to talk about exam..still wanna talk but about the plan after exam..I proposed to wawa and dailou already weeks ago..we go for a meal in VIPS after exam..u can anggap as to pamper our own self or as a recognition to our effort..whatever lar..and shopping perhaps??I want the time-machine from Dorae-mon:P..ahha I guess I got some answers for those questions over the reasons of staying up late everynite..first, night atmosphere is so nice..quiet..cool..give me the feeling like there's only me in this world..second, updates in soccer world always come at this time..kinda stupid right..I can recall back the time when I was at home after SPM..always woke up early(unnecessarily) just to get updated with football news in newspaper:P..third, by staying up late, u can get asleep faster since already tired..what a twisted arguement.."家有儿女"(Chinese comedy series) until episod 50++ already..bring me unstoppable laugh..sometimes Dota also:P..ya need some medicine to cut down appetite dee..huh 3:22 already..damn!!!

见一个 爱一个=.=

today, I had only 1 hour out of 4 hours of class..didn't feel pleased with that though..we were made compulsory to go to an exhibition called KOREAN ELECTRONICS SHOW(KES)..damn gotta travelled so far somemore, about one hour by bus..fine just went lor, but expecting to have a nice view of some graduates' inventions..deng!!only so so small part of the exhibition showing those inventions..can say as full with new models or products by those well-known electronics companies in Korea..rather travel on my own to Yongsan or COEX if want to see these kinda exhibition..yet the inventions exhibited there were kinda satisfying and remarkable..robots mostly^^I started to have this thought in my mind..should I have chosen Robotics that time??arrgh..can't explain the joy I had that time, listening to the explaination on how the robots work..tremendous..though can't say those inventions are really powerful but still mantap..anyway all of us decided to end the trip earlier..lasted only one hour..I would like to recommend that there are more lenglui's to see than remarkable products lor( for guys:P..not sure for gals)..here I wanna salute my Physics lecturer, so dedicated to extend our class even time's up already, in order to finish the chapter..9:05pm only let us go man..he made that already-cold weather worse..made some jokes that tk boleh belah one.."The bullet u released might hit u from behind"^^wanna fa xie a bit here:

I damn bu shuang with the DOTA game just now!!
bu shuang coz lost the first war of this new Utopia age!!
bu shuang coz still keep wasting time though exam is just around the corner!!
bu shuang b'coz of the weather!!
bu shuang b'coz of some unknown stress!!
bu shuang b'coz of down mood!!
bu shuang b'coz of my stupidness!!
bu shuang b'coz I not geng enough!!
bu shuang b'coz some people!!
bu shuang b'coz of this!!
bu shuang b'coz of that!!
bu shuang b'coz of everything!!

I wish that I have the right or power to mess everything up, break all into pieces and make them restart..arggh I wanna shout but now already past 2 in the midnite..ish..

come'on~~

这回倒还是头一遭..事态真那么严重吗?最近MSN寄语几乎都是关于压力.. 压力都快被大伙儿写到脸上去了..何谓压力 ?? 不就是力除于面积吗 ?? 当人因压力而搞得形色消瘦时 , 相对的面积将会变小 .. 到时不就使压力增大吗?? 真佩服自己又为大伙儿添了句至理名言了^^


为自己而活 方才称为生活
为生活而活 乃是受苦
何必呢~~

曾经
自我责怪
自我底下
回想当初
为何那样作贱自己呢

生活
是花再多的金钱也请不到的导师
教会了在学堂学不到的
自我陶醉
自我放松
曾经是那么愚笨
如今可该加倍`加倍的宠宠自己^^
把自己捧得高高在上的感觉
可是世上至高享受..

so fast next week going to have the first exam for mid-term already..Mechatronics~~swt this whole Saturday seems to be gone dee..gotta go Embassy to celebrate raya, with international fireworks fest at night somemore..if everyone going sure join what..nevermind already came up with a so-called 'well-planned' schedule..focus fire on Mechatronics..then only Physics and the damnit Materials..the unexpected early-made Mecha exam seems like making things better..at least I can focus on other heavy and lot-to-cover subjects right after next Wednesday^^pray hard my plan will work well..

k talk about my supper( can say as dinner also)..a 매운 바베큐맞 닭꼬치^^one of the attraction of Gaebong..I saje, purposely put in status to lure ppl:P..kaka..it's still as nice as before..so long didn't buy whoe chicken from there dee..paiseh dunno whether the price go up anot..nvm we got 꼬치..the uncle..so nice..so friendly..borak abit..damn the fried chicken there almost finished, even it's not 11 yet..terribly laku..this chicken shop will be the one I will miss the most if happen to leave..arrghh hate tmr..hate Fluids..hate the exhibition tmr..

好冷~~

才踏入十月, 这 '冷'是不是有点来得太早了??

骑着自行车上学, 一路上不停的叫喊, 他是疯了吗^^
这 '冷'呀..带来的是无法抗拒的睡意 站着也有点想闭上眼睛去会会周公的感觉..
没有 '冷' 就不能突显冲完热水澡所带来的舒适..
还是好想念昨晚那令人 '坐立不能' 的冷风^^

哀莫大于心死~~ 稍加修改
悲莫大于 '心冷'
相比于周围多人的热衷 你算的了什么?? 什么都不是!!
当初信誓旦旦的满腔热血那去了??没劲了??
有时真想长醉下去~~

what I've learnt

what a weekend..I was relative lepak compared to last week when I did my homework and report by almost all the time..but this week..don't wanna mention about it..ya exam passed..report submitted too..yet the stress is still there..how to catch??how to destroy it??the only way for me is to avoid it..and smile and laugh is its foe too..I guess those will smile or laugh(苦笑) like me when feeling extreme stress can be counted by one hand??still I appreciate this Saturday..we had basketball, MU with a thrashing 4-0 win, 2 wins in DOTA game at nite(must salute Silverrythm)^^oh my gal-like hair(according to some naughty and guai lan enough:P) gone..hope it brings away my bother(烦恼丝) too..aiks I was sad for hour after failing my attack(Utopia)..stress..feel like I'm physics+force-blind while doing homework..stress..haha that's why I got these 2: "no stress is also stress", "if this world can only exist with the existence of Physics, I rather this world doesn't exist!!!"..the first one can only be explained by experience..
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낙엽이 떨어지는 가을이 온다. 날씨도 쌀쌀해진다. 기분도 영향을 받고 이상해진다. 답답하기도 하고.. 왜 이랬으 까?? 가을이 원래 슬픈 계절인가?? 기분 좋은 얘기를 하려 했는데 꺼내지 못하네~~아니면 그런 얘긴 없는 건가?? 그럼 다른 얘길 할 까?? 이번 툐욜에 불꽃축제에 갈 사람 있나?? 소핑하러 하자는 사람 있나?? 하루 종일 책과 지내지 말자고..정말 잃은 자기를 찾아야 된다..점차 추워진 날씨같이 맘도 차가워져 버리면 아주 슬픈 얘기지..오래만에 한국어로 이런 글을 쓰는데 선생님한테 체크 받을 까?ㅋㅋㅋ..야단만 맞을 거지..이렇게 늦게까지..쌀쌀한 바람 창문에서..어두움에서 불어 온다..귀신..설마 있으면 뭐가 생기면 나쁘지도 않다 싶다..미친 놈??그냥 마지막 한다니: 추워~~

a nudge~~

it's not even 9am..a nudge started a deep chat between us..was so surprised and happy to get a nudge from SP..so so early in the morning..ya we didn't borak for long time dee..know u're busy lar..can understand..

a guy named SP..get to know him since Form 1..we get close very fast..though I was still in gang with those I know since primary school..haha mayb something similiar between both of us become the magnetic force gua..we criticised teachers, zat our own friends badly, acted very chuen and etc..kinda miss that time ler..but then soon we became 'opponent'..tried darn hard to beat each other for position in exam kaka..can't stop laughing if I have a flashback of our school-life that time..k I can say that u're my best friend after all..can't describe my joy when I heard both of us going to the same Matrix, KMNS^^yeah..yet we separated there after one month..it's so short of one month..outing together..gathered and borak in my room till midnite..hostel guard shouted down there somemore..that was the first time for me to share my feeling and opinion so so freely and openly..who else with us har that time??Ang ang and Yen Chew??guess so^^

anything changed since I came here??yea there're lots of changes but our friendship remains unchanged..should appreciate it rite:)..hmm were there only 2 of us last time I went back??yum cha at mamak at nite..so jiwang meh:p..one of my biggest secret became nothing to me=.=wakaka u dota also^^oh ya and thanks for ur advices, ur support and ur willingness to listen..not forget about ur kindness to share ur experience with me..I buy u a souvenir lor when I go back this winter??see first lar haha..

ok back to this morning..though that's only a chat less than 15 mins I guess..but then everything covered..what a nice chat though..kinda shock hearing that u ponteng class so so frequent..but then if it was me guess I'll do the same also..really pah be do(打不倒)..good luck in ur exam ya..good luck to me also in Maths exam which will take place 16hours later..today slept too much in class dee gut till now still quite fresh..must go sleep liao tmr wanna go school earlier..looking forward to our next chat..hope that we can share good news lar that time^^

a story...

"long long ago..."..generally stories start with this heading..once there's a boy..with kinda memorable childhood that he is quite proud of..almost unbeatable in class..been pampered, but not too over by elders..so..never felt threatened since he started schooling..being perfect was his only target..anything that went a little bit beyond his will and expectation will be kept in mind for days..

time flies..and changed everything as well..a small downfall in his life occurred..new environment.. all too unfamiliar to him..he faced problems to accustom to all the new stuffs..was too dull, too 'pathetic' for one year..he's no longer the one who can receive awards with ease like before.. seriously, things are like kinda weird for him..after crouching for so long came a bounce back from him..things go well as what he had been expecting..his hunger to hunt for pride and position was back..just in a different form..finally he accomplished the first major dream in his life^^

now..he came to a brand new life and environment..he entered a bigger platform, a bigger stage.. his background is acting as a force, pushing him to continue his hunt for glory..things won't always go as expectation though..some words from one of his faithful mate worked..his view on things began to change, without he realising it..consequently he felt his mind even closer than ever with his mate though seperated far..learning to live a life is always important..must know how to let things go when it's the time..must know how to face troubles with a laugh..from being too care, too stubborn over something, he's now able to feel satisfied with things easily..small achievements, some even not enough to make him feel proud before, now can simply bring a smile or laugh of satisfaction from him..with this, space and space were created..space to breathe, space to escape from reality temporarily..

#P/S: own creation..copyright reserved^^

一个'可'字

有时真想问问自己:"真的那么无所事事吗? 真的没事可做?" 或许吧...

可叹的是连自己都找不着北...
可悲的是无从发泄...
可笑的是非常时期居然还能宠宠自己...
都霍出去了
这样想或许会好过一些 :"我若为了这等事而烦, 那就不折不扣的是世上第一大蠢蛋!"
极力勉强时却处处碰壁, 放下了却反而豁然开朗, 意外的收获也随之而来..都跟你说了放手!!!
可是..可是..
人啊 总是那么多的'可是' , '要不然'...这些能当饭吃吗??
既然 '剪不断, 理还乱', 要么一刀断了, 要么任由其适...怨天尤人又有啥用呢..

damn lar dunno what's these about also:P..mayb need someone who will be able to translate to me gut hehe..omg I dozed off=.=suan le bah stop here..

ridiculous MONDAY!!!

never had a Monday like this..all the air like condensed..so hard to breathe..virus spread around..almost everyone suffering from flu, sorethroat, cough and e.t.c..even those who are able to fight the virus fail to stand the stress also I think..ok let's have a look at these:

(1) lets study ENGLISH!! in maths book:P
(2) study maths? more like study english lo~:|
(3) what is linear algebra?
(4) careful~~~~take care...all ikut trend copy sore throat
(5) 요즘 될 일이 하나도 없냐?
(6) goodbye dota...
(7) need changes..something wrong!!
(8) everybody gets sick....
(9) yw is right : lets open maths book n study english!!!
(10) 금요일전에 내게 도타하자는 사람은 사형!!!

'generally', statements listed above can be catogorized into 3..'RED' due to the maths exam which going to take place on Tuesday and Friday..seriously I rather study in Korean than facing those twisted English lor..my English not that power=.=even our ace, MP posted status like that(what is linear algebra?)......

'YELLOW' due to the health problems haunting some of us..dunno who started this..gotta pull him or her out to 'repair' a bit^^(by Xein one)..mayb due to the drastic change of weather..from summer into autumn..ya now it's always windy outside and there's no need to switch on fan liao:p..everyone take good care of urself o..unfinished battle lies ahead..

'OLIVE'?? dunno b'coz of what lar..mayb personal problems..mayb study problems also lar..but then "goodbye dota..." a bit irrational..by the one who has been so enthusiastic, fanatic and crazy over the game..guess he won't be able to stand long gut^^

ok personally I feel better now..can do a bit liao lar compared to yesterday just looking at the question and bengang like that nia..tmr is my lovely Tuesday again..warm welcome from me^^

long missed~~

wake me up..when september ends~~

the last hour of September..hmm any thought or comment on this month??I can describe it with the only word, 'rojak'..the reason is that what I had for the whole month are 'rojak' lifestyle, 'rojak' feeling, 'rojak' activities and e.t.c..can't explain it clearly coz it's complicated, or more precisely totally mixed up..lol confused liao with my own words..kk the same thing happened in this month is that we had birthday party as frequently as usual..3 times if not mistaken, for wz, fy and hc..ya we did have fun..won't forget to say that I got few friends in M'sia also been having their 20th birthday this month..Chang yee, Peak Hwa, Pui Ching, and Xiao Wue as well??wah all girls..lolz..sorry not sure about the exact date except Pui Ching the Blacky^^coz got birthday reminder and u're the one with different horoscope with others..know lar it's very bad to call a girl 'Blacky' but then get used liao..we called u like this for years dee what..give me some time..hehe I did wish her..but then sad to hear that she going to be quarantined(from her blog)..get infected with rubella, a contagious disease..with exam around the corner somemore..luckily she said almost ok already while we chatting..yet..I wanna say u no longer the PC I know b4..posting negative status in MSN everyday..stress from study??where is the PC who always outrun others in Maths during secondary school??where is the PC who can stay cheerful even being 'zat' badly by others..come'on cheer up!!oh xiau gu's birthday also in this month..so unlucky of her too, gotta have holidays at my house due to 'chicken pot'=.=here I wish both of u all the best and must recover as soon as possible^^hmm today is quite a meaningful Sunday to me..get my report almost done..from last nite till this evening wor..and I guess I'm the only one who haven't touched Maths at all at this stage..exam going to be on next Friday=.= if I can't do well in that one can't say bye bye to scholarship and stressful study liao gut:P..anyway let's think positively lor..after the exam on Friday, it'll be weekend again..guess it'll be the weekend I expect the most liao lar..I want exercise!!ok now back to the damn 'MATRICES'!!!

tired..tired of what??

sometimes..really feel like no space to breathe..no space to let myself relax..ok I admit that my holidays wasted..but feel well with it..but then..2nd report from the same subject within one month..omg what's this??ya mayb should appreciate it coz making me so so hardworking..Thursday's Physics homework already finished by afternoon of Saturday..Material's report given yesterday almost half-done by Sunday..yaw this's the first time..but still wanna shout.."damn!!shit!!what lar!!...."better stop b4 I come out with more kasar one..bengang ler no mood..these few days kept doing things out of my will..dat zhoi ppl unintentionally,they don't even know was me though^^now..time to sleep which was 2am during weekdays for last few weeks,was made to 3am..of coz lar fishing become the main job dee in class..I didn't want that..ya ticket to go back for this winter holidays almost settled..a remarkable chaos happened during the process..zzz.. will have a one-week tour in Taiwan^^suddenly thought of my childhood 'san lui' ,who is now studying in Taiwan..so long didn't meet dee=.= so bad today only told my family about this..I asked whether I look bad but then didn't get the answer I want..lol too long didn't show myself to them dee..yet still be syok with the words from my Korean classmate..not offending him(we quite friend) but be syok with the truth he told..said my jaw gone=.=he isn't the first one who said like this..dun want this..I want the face last year went back to M'sia time..another Korean said I sure stay up to study somemore..damn I stay up but not study lar..what had happened??no other way but gotta eat more liao..welcome back supper..

getting more confused liao..there's one time when I convinced myself that I'm always optimistic.. can smile and laugh with ease..sometimes walking or bathing also can laugh like what nia.."nevermind sure can do it one"..what a sentence..but then sometimes..will get stress easily..so so extreme de..haha nvm got this idea..think it in a positive way..no one can guess ur mind with such characteristics..arrgh headache liao..let's get back to the report then..need someone to donate flesh to me..and teach me Maths as well coz haven't studied and done a single question at all=.=

每逢佳节倍思亲~~

really ar will miss family more during festivals???not sure ler but Mooncake Festival coming in few days(called Thanks-giving day in Korea)..since few months later going back dee^^hmm tmr will have gathering makan2 with seniors..aiya if at home mama sure will buy lots of mooncakes for us to eat=.=..last week didn' exercise for the whole week so today sekali gus 'bou fan shou':P..aigh lost in rubber set again..but then we did well dee rite TS??guess what..my first time playing roller-skate..in a dark,cool and windy evening..LY,WZ,XY..that're so geng of u 3^^I'm absolutely a noob in this..but glad that didn't fall..next time ajak me too ya if going to skate again hehe..lolz it'll look weird that 4 ppl wearing skate-shoes, sitting on the roadside, laughing like hell while watching DMB phone..cool wind blowing somemore..ya 4 of us..with 2 DMB phone watching '미남들의 수다'(hope I spelled the name correct)..our senior Poh one of those handsome guys participating..wow Enes Kaya..so handsome and powerful in speaking Korean..what am I if compared to those with so fluent Korean??eih later only found out that others(mostly gals??) agreed that another 미남, Julian from Canada the most handsome..didn't really pay attention to him since he seldom spoke..different ppl with different viewe gua..:)..so far only one game of dota for tonite..swore to some that will only play one game..wah one day ended like this..couldn't manage to study much(still satisfied dee with my homework done dee^^)..looking at those circuits with no idea on how to figure it out!!arrrgh..blame me woke up so late today..the last to wake up in my house,11.40!!!till Dailou said that first time see me wake up so late since we became roommate..lol:P..anyway this few days kinda feeling peace..not that stress^^mayb I told myself to 看开 a bit??not wise to stress myself too much..let's lepak nia..and here wish everyone HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL^^

P/S: come'on MU's return

随感而发~~

小雨
给花草树木带来了滋润
给碧绿池水带来了连漪
给炎热夏天带来了秋息
给繁忙城市带来了五颜六色的花伞美景
给人们(吾也)带来了长吁短叹的心境 唉~~

小品
让作者有了发挥自己咬文嚼字的才能
让读者有了欣赏文学创作的机会
让文库有了慕书而来的顾客
让文学有了让人焕然一新的新格局
也让我 有了模仿自创的题材 哈哈

小路
让人们有了抄捷径的抉择
让心怀不轨者有了油水的所在
让路人迷失了方向
也偶尔 让人有豁然开朗的那一刻
让前方`未来更加明朗 ^^

当初, 我下定决心
曾经, 我无忧无虑
曾几何时, 我意气风发
忘了何时, 我跌到谷底
回想现在, 我无言以对
展望未来, 我的指路明灯..

为何所困?? 非也非也..
为何所烦?? 也不尽然..
为何所迷?? 从何谈起..
为何所逼?? 岂有此理..
为何所惑?? 不谈也罢..
过关斩将 又是何人设的关 谴的将!!!

911??!

just realised that today is 911..forgot how many years ago d..Americans having their disaster, nightmare..dullness hit most of the people though..ahem..sorry I want to say that I might not be able to find another day in these few months that is as perfect as today^^starting from late in the midnight..Utopia, which had occupied most of my free time recently..I became a LORD:)..though it only lasted for dunno how many hours,quite short..but can feel and enjoy the pride,still..ya today is Tuesday..a day which I made as my great-lepak day by adjusting my schedule..3 hours of class only..till 12 in the noon..here I'm going to say proudly that today is the first day that I didn't feel sleepy and 'fish' at all during class,after school had started for one week d^^had CAD class today..found out that I still can do what, not karat totally hehe..but then still can't rub off the sadness on the Ao that I got for CAD last sem..costed me hundreds of thousand won I guess:'(..but nvm lar..really hungry ler after class..I was the last one who left the class..why??not that hardworking lar to learn extra from lecturer or revise lar..I made my attack(u know what lar) in the computer lab:P..this time smart d..not like yesterday almost late for Fluids Dynamics class,in order to attack:D..act should go home and cook de,saving mah..really can't tahan..so ngam met dailou and cy..yeah ate in big group again like yesterday^^went for a shop in Lotte Mart..feel so nice..but kept taking nap at home..dailou must be shocked seeing what I doing when he reached home:P..haha..hmm today I finally cooked 'formally' and properly(not meaning the food nice) in so many weeks d..bah kut teh and dunno what vege(sux)..went to market for the first time in month??!my eyes almost drop seeing all the price..what the hell..10000won can't get all the things I wanna buy..cursing all the way??yet still needa carry all the stuffs home..so heavy..bad thing happened..suddenly I found that my mouse-pointer can't move d on the screen..even I tried my haven't-used new mouse..ok I give u time to cool down..unplugged all the cables and left the CPU to the fan..but the prob still unsolved when I tried later..ok had the most quiet dinner,without music and the CPU noise..mayb ppl going to say that I'm pessimistic but I really made the worst decision that time..(can't change lar when troubles strike..will be at a lost and as a result my hair will be the victim..if my hair not lebat sure will become bald..used to pull hair when troubled:P)..finished transfering all datas and files needed into my portable..FORMAT!!didn't give up at all act..I asked help from jun han^^finally settled,applying System Restore..thanks ya roommate:)..ahew..HOORAY..my perfect day not spoiled..been made more 'perfect' somemore..hehe..bathe time still smiling ler..oh ya almost finished the 2nd chapter for Thermodynamics..I wanna post this message to my 'DEAR' com:"if u keep making troubles for me, u r helping me to fund ur own successor"..hehe..com down time..what to do??TV also out of service..study lor..that's why can be this fast what..can't stop the joy(SHUANG!!)..haha I'm optimistics de lar for most the time.. baba said:"if a ppl can't eve daydream, then his or her life will be only disaster,ke bei"..hehe applying it all the time..father and son mah..ok now back to reality!!

more than one year d~~

more than one year didn't see my family dee..was such a fool last year didn't take a shot of them when I went back,with my digi-cam..swt..haha wrote this for my baba..though he doesn't have high education(only managed to finish his primary school), he's kinda father that all my siblings are proud of..I'm not saimeng about my dad lar..just that all my uncles and aunts said it's a waste that he didn't further his study mah..hehe I guess it's true de..if I have his 'geng'ness then I won't suffer in study d now:P..hmm he dunno English de..only knows to speak some words in English..but one thing..his Mandarin is kinda god-like to me..haha one of my aunt(whose Mandarin not that good) said that baba can even sit for STPM's Chinese exam dee..wah..hehe having a father who is an all-rounder is always great..as a carpenter he repairs fishermen's boat,ship..he can make furniture..most of the furnitures in my house are own-made..though my house is only single-storey house,but we have a double-storey room thanks to his 'magic'^^he knows engine too..or things related to metal(my uncles' field)..can handle some minor electrical stuffs also,such as wiring and fixing some simple electrical appliances..wah we save alots of money with our mighty father..until a friend of my aunt said that my family is stingy,using all own-made stuffs^^lolz..forgot dee since when..I began to fill my father's occupation as 'MECHANIC' in all the official forms or documents..baba is always strict to all of us since we were little kids..hehe almost all of my cousins feeling scared of him..hmm after growing abit older only get to know our real baba..caring, responsible, smart, humor..hehe mayb my Teo-chew before that sux gua..he's kinda nice and funny man to his friends, old classmates and our relatives too..humor, making ppl laugh..aiya I didn't inherit this good characteristics from him:|..guess it's baba's strictness that made all my siblings '乖乖仔' in eyes of our relatives,and even school teachers..(ok I admit that I'm not guai,not at all)..can't figure out how big is the effort he paid to make sure we have good education..hehe wanna talk about his weird weird hobbies..practising calligraphy..riding motorbike around..(kinda enjoy going out with him on motorbike:P)..hehe I promise(to myself) that I'll practise again lor writing with you when I go back end of this year, if I got the mood lar that time:P..Chinese literature..wanna 자랑 also..I touched Chinese literature bcoz of his influence gut..now mostly 'given back' to him again lor..forgot alots liao..but can't reach his level to write 'dui lian'..stop!!!now talk something bad lar about baba..a traditionalist..mayb I got some smell of that also??wah last time, even I already in secondary school, but still not allowed to be outside till late in night..Form 4 or Form 5 time, once I went hanging out with friends till a bit late(over 11pm), he will start finding me,by calling or else..that's why never experience staying overnight with friends that time..now I can see some changes in him..mayb all of us are grown up dee??dunno ler..that day modified one of his favourite poem haha..guess I didn't miss any about you hor..both good and bad:P..wanna go sleep dee..first weekend of our new sem..any plan??!

what had happened to me:@

first day back to school..lolz went to the wrong classroom somemore for the first class..first day already need to practise on lathe(one of the most common manufacturing machine)the assistant is going to give us a test next week,through evaluation..I had no chance to touch and practise the machine:'(..should have went back to M'sia so that can have my own practice on lathe and welding..private only to me..but then I'm confident that I can do much more better than some of my Korean classmates..though won't be able to fight some others..proud^^aiya I need to sound out 'YAHOO' and 'AHEW'..there will be no writing exam for this practical subject but test will take place every 2 weeks:'(..Mechanical no longer the Mechanical I know..oh ya thanks to Professor Lee for cutting my Mon's schedule to 4 hours..it's so kind of him^^not going to mention my second lecture..kept drowsing all the time..had badminton again after yesterday..my form was terribly bad..after 2 or 3 games nia already felt pain all over my body..no mood also..but then mates..must have exercise at least once a week..to keep fit and to stay fresh as well..ended up with me leaving the earliest..still gotta think hard over my schedule..either to have 2 days in hell with one lepak day..or 1 day in hell with no lepak day..see first lar..hate to decide and always believe that the ship will be straight when approaching bridge:P..wah almost felt asleep twice!!deng2..sad sad..at least 20% of my allowance this month will be gone..charmed into textbooks:'(..haha just know bout something funny today..and a bit embarassed too:P..suddenly figured out this:"THE MORE U KNOW ABOUT SOMETHING U WILL FIND IT MORE COMPLICATED"..can be applied on ppl, study and most of things..dunno why suddenly think of this..dunno whether I mean to use it on ppl or study..both gua(lolz)..

from now on~~

seeing all the MSN status u will know what 'tomorrow' means for all of us..few weeks ago I was hoping that tomorrow will be the 'tomorrow' mentioned above^^(confusing??):P..but now like dun wan to start school..sobz..last nite went to norae(kara-oke) for the fourth time in 2 months^^had a great time there..again this morning dota still on so went to bed with sun already shining outside..but then as promised didn't touch dee after this 'morning'..I had badminton instead..b4 this really karat d since didn't play for months..but today quite ok lar..just a bit 아깝다 lost by rubber-set..sorry TS I'll do better next time^^wah quite tiring ler..maybe I just purposely made myself tired so that can sleep earlier tonite??like what xein said woke up earlier so that will feel tired earlier(her own theory wor according to her..can join force with me d..to create our own wai li:P)..dunno why dun feel like joining for 삼겹살(pork)..feel like wanna stay at home and be guai guai^^sleep early..had 'dan dan mian' instead for my own..though it's kinda instant noodle bought in China..nice to have different stuff than eating Korean rameon all the time..plus a 닭꼬치..yummy^^kolian can only talk to baba..mama already slept when I called..throat hurt by fish bone until needa see doctor..the fish costs RM100++!!!pity mum..I'll wait for the program u plan for me baba..hehe..feel lucky lar this summer not as terrible as the last..at least now I don't needa switch on the fan also..really hope this will be the longest nite for me till now..don't come the next day..aiya no idea on what to write dee..even I finish here also nothing to do liao..really want me to open the textbook meh..hmm I just rejected to have dota..feel proud^^oh ya my title here..from now on~~no more sleeping late and waking up late..it's a must..from now on~~no more lepak:'(..from now on~~no more crazy dota..a lots a lots..but then I told myself..after 4 months then..haha..

need a thought

wah 7am only go to bed..and I had a dream..have been missed it so much..I'm not going to tell anything bout that dream..just that I realised that I will be scared also under that situation..haha..today is Xin Yang's birthday, and we did the fourth birthday party in this month..almost all of us are here d..only few are still missing..lol nowadays 'DOTA' will surely be included in our chat..hehe must play gau gau if wanna study properly in the new sem..and during the gathering, I noticed something..time time should be given I guess..no one will be able to do anything..damn I found out that I still care..even care more than ever..what a......teach me how to solve it, or leave it, or anything else..hehe now I'm applying one of the skill in 'wushu','tuo'..means dragging it..and live my life as well even with it bothering me..

one more week:'(

lolz it's almost midnite again...one more week then school will reopen, but my hand still itchy,waiting for a nudge...needa turn everything around...had a conversation with family yesterday...but suddenly mum asked:"u have nothing to talk with us meh?"...oh these few words hit me hard,really hard...not that I don't have anything to borak, just that I was too tired that time...can be said as half-awake...oh man all because of my crazy lifestyle...said d wanna have back a normal lifestyle for a student, for effective study...but I just can't...even no dota I'll also stay up until the sun going to give out his first shine...jialat lar...ya today KH and Lionel just shifted...so my house now the only one in Gaebong...the lonely and unique 'house'...again I overslept but still managed to help a bit...really a bit...oh now more and more are coming back from M'sia, to get ready for the new sem...and enjoy ur trip our HK group...haha thanks to Adrian's status in MSN...he messaged me...but I wasn't in just now:P...glad to see and read change in one of my sincere friend...through observation and words...I need changes also^^hmm this few weeks seldom see him online...one of my best friend...I enjoy sharing my experience and thought with him...but then quite hard to get him online...lolz....dunno why suddenly I think bout him...mayb there's something I like to talk with only him...and he can give some nice responses to me...not to say that I'm not close enough with others...I trust them alots too...I just can't find out why...haha dunno whether will u happen to read this...sure will be touched haha...haih whatever I will do tonite, I just need to wake up in time tmr...YH,HK,Xein and Shan are shifting...ex-Gaebong-in too...hmm...mum, dad, not that I purposely wanna conceal my lifestyle from u...just that don't want 2 of u to worry...hehe sounds like a good boy pulak...but I promise...I won't let this sem going like last sem...the disaster-like last sem should be kept only as history...history to be forgotten...work for intel, pride, ...everything...

第二个夏天

' 宁静的夏天 天空中繁星点点... ...'梁静茹的歌声响起...
静茹啊~~你可否知道夏天可是一点都不宁静...白天, 那热呼呼的热风, 直把人刮的是汗流浃背, 叫苦连天...夜晚, 除了虫鸣, 没有一丝丝的凉意, 那怕是开了多把电风扇, 也还是叫'热'不迭...这热呀, 可是把我熏得晕头转向, 更带来频频的睡意...做什么都提不起劲, 无异于行尸走肉(夸张了点:P)...走在夏天的大街上, 可感受到青年男女们通过服装释放的十足活力, 也可感到装有空调的商店散发的诱惑....天啊~~这可真的让我体会到空调的可贵...前几天的我, 还在那庆幸着今年的夏天要比去年的好上数倍...原来在后头等着的才是高潮...衷心祈求, 有一架时光机把我带走,那怕是把我送到气温零下十几度的冬天...至少, 冬天能让我的心宁静下来, 把所有的烦恼冻结, 也把心湖冻结, 到时那怕是狂风飕飕, 也激不起一阵涟漪...

first time...

lolz...last nite should be a nice and memorable to KS...and to us too...after acting for the whole day and KS feeling sad I guess, we gave him a surprise...had a party for him one hour b4 his birthday passed...I think everyone expecting KS to drop his tears but didn't happen...haha sobz...we went to 안양천,a 'well-known' riverside for us^^we had had a nice time there...with chicken and cake...the atmosphere so nice until one Korean guy interrupted...he asked for a lighter...his weird behaviour made us to recognize him as drunken...after he lit his cigarette with the lighter we lent him he just walked away...his return after that started the chaos...asked us whether want to play with them(he meant drinking gut)...our mood was spoiled...lazy to 'layan' him and we just ignored him and intended to leave...shit he suddenly got frustrated tracked us all the way...he even left his shoe print at JT's face... isshh...whacked Wawa pulak!!!keke Wawa shouted at him,with the loudest voice I heard from him:P...he gave a flying kick...but received a punch from Wawa which brought him to the ground...everyone must 另眼相看 to Wawa d...Xein even regretted that she can't see the scene(didn't wear her con...blamed MP for that somemore)^^lolz even I am quite alcoholic compared to others(:P), but I always look down at those who take chance to act irrelationally when they're in drunken state!!!I pray hard that I won't come to be like that ever...oh KS don't feel guilty...not ur fault also but surely this will be the most unforgottable birthday for u^^salute to Wawa also...stop dota lar u...sayang ur fingers...

无言以对...

wanna talk bout my title 无言以对(wu yan yi dui)...meaning can't even say a word when facing certain situations...hope that I didn't explan it wrongly^^hehe the purpose I put this Chinese idiom for my title...hmm...mayb I think that when I found myself been under this kinda situation, doing a post will be one of the best way...not only speechless under situation happened with things or ppl involved, something speechless to myself also...I wonder whether this should be considered as psycho problem or else...haha won't let it disturbing or spoiling my life also...just sometimes it makes me down...haha seems like I already addicted to a bad habit...always don't like to use things the proper way...even idioms also:P...lolz...anyhow this is my own way...learn things...then use or apply them as I like, following my own style and my own will...I won't mind even anyone said it's weird(though sometimes I do)...