am I that wrong?

여기 온 지 닥 열흘 된 이 금요일 날에
나는 눈치 안 보고 쉬라는 대로 하루동안 쉬었어
윗 분이 생각보다 만만치 않다는 사실에
현장 근무가 생각과 다르다는 것 더해서
내가 가졌던 열정도, 하루 하루 식어져 가고 있어

그런데 부정적인 면을 떠나서
나는 항상 고맙게 생각하고 있어
저 본국에서 고생하고 있는 전우를 생각하면서
그나마 여기 젊은 선배, 동기가 많아서 다행이라 생각하기도 하고
여가 활동에도 나를 포함시켜 주고
목요일 밤에 정말 즐거웠어 아주 아주
오래만에 그렇게 뛰어 힘들었지만, 그래도 취미고 몸 건강도 생각하고
술자리도 1차까지 좋았고

고민이 여기서 시작한다
나랑 비슷한 스페셜 케이스로 공사로 들어온 동기들
과연 니네 말처럼 잘못 왔는가
개인 의사 최대한 반영해 준다 해서 여기 만한 곳 없다는 것도
웬만하면 여기 계속 있고 싶어 제발 좀 남아 줘 다들~
이제 친해지는 데 노력하겠다는 내게 한 약속
제발 좀 무사히 나 여기서 한 1,2년 동안 달리고 싶다

온 지 오직 열흘에 불과한데 그래도 11월 빨리 왔으면 좋겠어
들어가서 나누고 싶은 얘기, 심정, 생각도 너무 많고, 집에 한번 가 보고 싶기도 하고
편안하게 자고 내일 또 새로운 출발^^

First post from SEI

After so many months, I came to my own sky again...
Please don't be disappointed that the first post from SEI is not a positive and a fun one...
I'm really really, really really sleepy and tired now...
Maybe I must sleep early tonight, if not tomorrow will turn out to be the same like today, or even yesterday...
Okay, let's get back to the Rabigh, hopefully I would be able to finish at least 5 files for today...
AZA AZA!!!!

星期五，期待的

过了明天，这一周的公务也就将告一段落...
这班同事，离我想象的，期待的太远了...
回想起在大宇时，还蛮吃得开...
GNEC时也比现下好上一段...
想不透...
我拼命告诉自己，最需要的是时间...
然而时间是否真的能解决一切？
我衷心希望起点不代表一切~
是他们的背景吗？
似乎开始有点愤世疾俗的感觉...
不是吧？走到这了才来?！！
嘿，no no no...
我只是慢热罢了！！！
数周前，友人的 ‘退堂鼓’声已响了回，我可还不想敲那鼓叻！！！
因为某人的软弱，我觉得我有必要坚强起来，决断点，再狠点!!!

blog in a funny way~

haha can't imagine that I'm blogging in this way.


abit of guilt actually, with the senior manager giving lecture in front, me, at my seat typing not the note about the lecture but for my personal blog, ouch!

X'MAS and NEW YEAR~

X'mas and Boxing day just passed, and new year is ahead, 2011!!!
for most of the gang here, 2011 is like a, hmm milestone in our life, gonna step into another stage~
good luck and all  the best to myself, and to all my mates!

me, had a whole week of sleepless nights, not sleepless but couldn't sleep well >.<
it's too 'kind' of me, hesitated again...
well, if I would be able to mend it later, fine...
if things go another way, just close up eyes and....

peoples tend to say, NEW y34r NEW Vision...
my personal missions for the first week of 2011 is~

1)  get all my stuffs packed
2)  shift to a new region, for 'rich'~ @.@
3)  get ready to go back, pray hard that I wouldn't need to postpone my flight!

Good night, Earth people~

update~

before I start, to those strangers and spammers, stop wasting your time login here and flood my chatbox!

here goes my last 2 weeks as an undergraduate student.
these 2 are going to be a busy and tough one.
my main job now is to pass that disastrous subject to graduate safely,
and become a Samsung-man.
and then, go shopping, have a MT, and a merry Christmas.
shall I go for a trip before going back home?
Japan? anyone?
I'm flying back Korea on 5th Feb next year, while the ticket to go back haven't been bought.
for the whole week past, I was in a total down-and-weird mood, hopefully someone can tell me why.
lately, I've been spending time thinking something, denying it after that, and I fell into dilemma.
am I  thinking too much? or is it because the thing itself is too complicated.
I've been seeking for that 'truth' for all this while, with no answer till then.
When will, when can I get the right and the last piece to complete the puzzle of mine?
hmm~

锄草~

好久没上门了，怎么了？

秋去冬来，百年不变，也是自然定律。
不知不觉，这已是身在高丽的第6个冬天了。
光阴似箭，我看比箭还快呢。
试想，当骊歌奏完那一霎那，曾经的‘战友’就要各奔西东了。
留下来淘金，是我的梦，也将会实现。
令我彷徨的是，留给我实现另一个梦的时间已经不多了。
就酱放弃了吗？还在进退维谷吗？
我是真想豁出去。。。
霍霍霍霍！