我又回来了...

我又回来了...
也许, 回到这小天地越频繁, 越不是件好事...
过往还蛮兴奋的, 可以在这唯我的空间留下自己的一点一滴, 以容日后缅怀或反省...
近来留下的却是不堪回首的记忆...
真的很不高兴, 我试过 EMO, 可从没有过持续这么长时间的...
是能力有限的问题吗? 还是时不于我?
当初的豪情, 坚持已渐渐离我而去...
正所谓 '天将降大任于世人....', 我现在只想做普通人...
在面子书上试了个运程测试,

爱情 - 糟  : 无可奈何吧 谁叫你一支公呢?
事业 - 糟  : 正正是我当下的写照...
健康 - 糟  : 哇 用不用啊? 谁叫你酱 STRESS 呢? 吃又不戒口, 还酗酒...
财运 - ?    : 忘了, 还是赶快把手头上的'红'放了套现吧~

天啊, 现在我只能祈祷, 但愿光阴真的似箭呗~

钱, 作怪~

it's been long since my last post here... and even me myself couldn't expect the changes happened....
I, as time goes on, am walking further and further away from the ambitious goal I set for myself....
yet, gain in figure is followed by depletion in other aspects....
3 weeks of vacation, and today is the exact 21st day after I came back here, a prison called 'RRE'....
being the richest-ever me in my life so far, I am having the poorest, and the most lonely soul now....
well, the saying that when u gained something, u lost, or are losing something for it, is always true....
it's still long to start the countdown now, yet I told 2 of them, time is ticking really slow....
when I turned my head back, few more days are going to make it a month, the quarter mark of the duty before the next freedom....
I dunno what's awaiting in the future, I couldn't even expect how my mood is going to be tomorrow, less than 10 hours from now....
After all, I still appreciate what I am having now... some beloved who are always behind me, giving me endless support and power... some spirits that help me to stand against the loneliness, and mentally torture by an insane....
I seldom pray, yet I would like to thank and pray for the blessings, please, hold me strong till the end which might be not far away~

the day that made my week

there are some reasons and an irresistible force that 'urged' me to compose my 2nd of the day, a day that I want to remember so much during these few weeks of OJT~

As usual, every morning we have toolbox talk after exercise and before the duty starts... Almost everybody was shocked hearing that the person who needs to give talk today is a Philippine supervisor, called Jonathan and he already quitted... Well, another Philippine from my team, Jamie took over, and he talked about importance of communication in site work... He recommended to approach people nicely, diplomatically, not by shouting or way like that... I am firmly sure that he meant and included both the boss in our team... I could only lower my head, to conceal that I'm actually laughing... And, he even mentioned straight he did mean Korean supervisor, but from the sub-con company... the safety manager unpleasantly, tried to stop him from talking further, failed, and he ended up adding his words to 'save' the atmosphere, LOLZ!

Ohh, I forgot what I did for the morning, except the routine daily report and some scanning, photocopy stuffs... In the afternoon, another Pinoy sits next to me, got a call and was explaining with full effort to a supervisor, Korean of course regarding some works... Unable to stand, I burst out with laughter, and he murmured to me:"Why those Koreans bla bla bla........"... I am here with identity that employed through system that Koreans go through, receiving treatment and status as other Koreans do, but with non-Korean nationality... And, around me there are many from  Philippines, Tagalog could be heard all around... Yo, we are from ASEAN, I somehow have intimate feeling that we are from the same region, but my status is marked as 'Korean'... Sometimes, I even have the feeling of being in the middle, ROFL~ This is the best, I can sometime enjoy some funny scenes occurring between them (^^)

Today, I was thinking about dinner dish to be served as I wish... And, it happens!!! Fried chicken as the main dish... I really had a nice and full dinner today^^ On the way heading back to room, an assistant manager approached me, and after knowing that I'm currently OJT, he kindly 'promised' to give me an interesting assignment once my dispatched is confirmed!!! Oh yea, here starts the countdown of final 3 weeks as OJT here~

知足, 常乐~

"知足 常乐", 一句谁都说得出口的常用句, 但真正实践得到的又有几人呢?

我自问从小就要求多多, 从不轻易满足, 所以 "知足 常乐"于我就如"剥削(bs)"...

而今有些'年纪'了, 不知是否看开了 还是咋了, 籽麻绿豆般的小事也能让我打从心里笑出来...

写给我的上司 : 其实一句不经意的'good', '잘했어' 已足以 make my day...

写给大厨房司 : 一道 '닭도리', 几块香脆炸鸡也足以让我津津有味... 搞不清楚最近干吗那么嘴馋...

所以, 大家如果觉得我有年轻到, 千万千万, 千万千万要说出来哦~

am I that wrong?

여기 온 지 닥 열흘 된 이 금요일 날에
나는 눈치 안 보고 쉬라는 대로 하루동안 쉬었어
윗 분이 생각보다 만만치 않다는 사실에
현장 근무가 생각과 다르다는 것 더해서
내가 가졌던 열정도, 하루 하루 식어져 가고 있어

그런데 부정적인 면을 떠나서
나는 항상 고맙게 생각하고 있어
저 본국에서 고생하고 있는 전우를 생각하면서
그나마 여기 젊은 선배, 동기가 많아서 다행이라 생각하기도 하고
여가 활동에도 나를 포함시켜 주고
목요일 밤에 정말 즐거웠어 아주 아주
오래만에 그렇게 뛰어 힘들었지만, 그래도 취미고 몸 건강도 생각하고
술자리도 1차까지 좋았고

고민이 여기서 시작한다
나랑 비슷한 스페셜 케이스로 공사로 들어온 동기들
과연 니네 말처럼 잘못 왔는가
개인 의사 최대한 반영해 준다 해서 여기 만한 곳 없다는 것도
웬만하면 여기 계속 있고 싶어 제발 좀 남아 줘 다들~
이제 친해지는 데 노력하겠다는 내게 한 약속
제발 좀 무사히 나 여기서 한 1,2년 동안 달리고 싶다

온 지 오직 열흘에 불과한데 그래도 11월 빨리 왔으면 좋겠어
들어가서 나누고 싶은 얘기, 심정, 생각도 너무 많고, 집에 한번 가 보고 싶기도 하고
편안하게 자고 내일 또 새로운 출발^^

First post from SEI

After so many months, I came to my own sky again...
Please don't be disappointed that the first post from SEI is not a positive and a fun one...
I'm really really, really really sleepy and tired now...
Maybe I must sleep early tonight, if not tomorrow will turn out to be the same like today, or even yesterday...
Okay, let's get back to the Rabigh, hopefully I would be able to finish at least 5 files for today...
AZA AZA!!!!

星期五，期待的

过了明天，这一周的公务也就将告一段落...
这班同事，离我想象的，期待的太远了...
回想起在大宇时，还蛮吃得开...
GNEC时也比现下好上一段...
想不透...
我拼命告诉自己，最需要的是时间...
然而时间是否真的能解决一切？
我衷心希望起点不代表一切~
是他们的背景吗？
似乎开始有点愤世疾俗的感觉...
不是吧？走到这了才来?！！
嘿，no no no...
我只是慢热罢了！！！
数周前，友人的 ‘退堂鼓’声已响了回，我可还不想敲那鼓叻！！！
因为某人的软弱，我觉得我有必要坚强起来，决断点，再狠点!!!

blog in a funny way~

haha can't imagine that I'm blogging in this way.


abit of guilt actually, with the senior manager giving lecture in front, me, at my seat typing not the note about the lecture but for my personal blog, ouch!

X'MAS and NEW YEAR~

X'mas and Boxing day just passed, and new year is ahead, 2011!!!
for most of the gang here, 2011 is like a, hmm milestone in our life, gonna step into another stage~
good luck and all  the best to myself, and to all my mates!

me, had a whole week of sleepless nights, not sleepless but couldn't sleep well >.<
it's too 'kind' of me, hesitated again...
well, if I would be able to mend it later, fine...
if things go another way, just close up eyes and....

peoples tend to say, NEW y34r NEW Vision...
my personal missions for the first week of 2011 is~

1)  get all my stuffs packed
2)  shift to a new region, for 'rich'~ @.@
3)  get ready to go back, pray hard that I wouldn't need to postpone my flight!

Good night, Earth people~

update~

before I start, to those strangers and spammers, stop wasting your time login here and flood my chatbox!

here goes my last 2 weeks as an undergraduate student.
these 2 are going to be a busy and tough one.
my main job now is to pass that disastrous subject to graduate safely,
and become a Samsung-man.
and then, go shopping, have a MT, and a merry Christmas.
shall I go for a trip before going back home?
Japan? anyone?
I'm flying back Korea on 5th Feb next year, while the ticket to go back haven't been bought.
for the whole week past, I was in a total down-and-weird mood, hopefully someone can tell me why.
lately, I've been spending time thinking something, denying it after that, and I fell into dilemma.
am I  thinking too much? or is it because the thing itself is too complicated.
I've been seeking for that 'truth' for all this while, with no answer till then.
When will, when can I get the right and the last piece to complete the puzzle of mine?
hmm~

锄草~

好久没上门了，怎么了？

秋去冬来，百年不变，也是自然定律。
不知不觉，这已是身在高丽的第6个冬天了。
光阴似箭，我看比箭还快呢。
试想，当骊歌奏完那一霎那，曾经的‘战友’就要各奔西东了。
留下来淘金，是我的梦，也将会实现。
令我彷徨的是，留给我实现另一个梦的时间已经不多了。
就酱放弃了吗？还在进退维谷吗？
我是真想豁出去。。。
霍霍霍霍！

攘攘人生~

原来，人真的可以决定自己的生活，日常作息。
有些人喜欢过些悠哉游哉`慢条斯理的生活；却也有些非得让自己忙得不可开交的‘傻子’？
曾经，俺信誓旦旦，非得`一定要‘游手好闲’的度过`享受这剩余的学生时期。
俺是多么的向往~
奈何呀~天不从人愿。
这也要，那也要，到头来是苦了自己四处奔波，“得闲死，不得闲病”。
是本少天生命贱吗？嗱，我不信命！
那就是自己犯贱咯？对吧！！！

充满惊喜的人生是值得期盼的。
可是，请保佑我无风无浪，安然度过未来的一周，
那我就谢天谢地了，善哉善哉~

不眠之晨

I'm up, sitting in front of ASUS K40IN even before it ticked 7...
usually ppl face difficulty to get into sleep at the night, but me, in this morning>.<
perhaps some reading? or get myself a better breakfast? =D

月到中秋‘看不见’

秋夕，以‘浪迹学子’身份度过的最后一个秋夕...
秋风飕飕，乌云密布，嫦娥仙居的月宫景象含羞涩涩，犹抱琵琶....
常言道：“每逢佳节倍思亲”
我思了吗？还是思‘情’呢？
正所谓：憧憬未来，却又怕失去了现在....

十来日的休假，每天闲来无事，游‘街’好‘食’...
有朋自远方来，‘相见’不亦‘欢’乎...
才刚入秋，中秋‘佳节’却已在身后，不由‘怅’乎~~

fate...

I must learn not to cry over spilt milk....

I must learn not to grumble over uncertain and unguaranteed benefits...

I must learn not to be a chicken, in taking risk and having a bet...

I must learn, to do double-check before pressing the button...

I must learn, to read instruction in the first place...

I must learn, to 'appreciate' what I have in the present...

I MUST NEVER miss that 'sports shoes' again!!!

....

okay, it's back to starting point again...

trapped!

thanks to Mr. typhoon.. I don't have internet access at home since last night... and the technican will only come on Thursday... that kind of 'laoya' internet company is it? Internet out of service once the weather gets terrible... TMD....

already pek cek before going home, lagi pek cek after knowing that internet out of service... whole night lao lao long... all the tasks i scheduled to be done at home couldn't be touched! couldn't follow 2 dramas that I'm into very much also! sweat... luckily I could still spend the 3~4 hours by watching some that I downloaded but put aside>.<

again, plan is always perfect... planned to visit tour agency to ask about travelling package for my family... price is not out yet for next year tour.. luckily I did make call before visiting straight... Hase, only 2nd week of the sem, already fully seated after lunch! no, no foul words...nevermind I still have my 4th floor nest^^ planned to stay here till dinner, till I finished downloading dramas to watch at night, till I finished my scheduled work, at least!

fumalak!

昨日，有两个‘傻子’，每十分钟就按一次。
终于，看到最终数目了！被吓了一跳，我们干的’好事‘，值那么多吗？哈哈，爽！！！
同僚中，有些’立志‘要把它花完，背包旅行啦，给父母买些啥啦，给女友买包包啦。我又可做些啥叻？唉.....
剩下一周多点儿的暑假，本少最后十来日的学校假期？
想做又还没做的事？未了的心愿？太多了。
不小了，不能再这样，浑浑沌沌地，笑看红尘地。
“别人笑我太疯癫，我笑他人看不穿”。
这话对吗？我癫吗？我有资格笑人看不穿吗？
人，摸摸索索，这样就是一生~~

danger~~

I think I'm just too free... I lost count of how many opinion articles I read from Sinchew over these 2 days... Being a final year student who's going to step out from campus into the real cruel world of reality outside, I'm still way from being good... That's is, I rarely read news... I just got to know that there was a bus explosion in Seoul last week? If u ask me what happened in Malaysia lately? sorry, I got no idea...

long long ago, I already got this habit... I only read Sinchew, the main page and opinion... My logic is that I found it frustating to read the news, mostly negative, from my point of view... So, I got used to reading only the opinion articles there... Some may want to say I'm radical or what, but those articles really expressed out what I have in mind, or most of C-blooded crowd in Malaysia?

Lately, issues about stop sending scholars abroad, goverment & public servants' efficiency... and then there is an article, about reason why our C-young generation not so fond of taking part in politics... the keyword is stated there: DISAPPOINTMENT... it's said that our C-youngsters don't see any chance, and hope out of this country, which I couldn't agree more... some politicans(including our 'legendary' M) complained, what do we want... All we want is just a 'fair' and promising stage, a platform for us to show, to utilize our ability... If this condition is secured and provided in motherland, who will want to cross the Ocean and land for their future? The
more I read, the more I nodded, I sighed... just pray that, I won't be sighing, at least lessened, after 2 years...........
.
(another sigh: my hesitation and tiredness, made me miss the golden chance, maybe to achieve what I've been pursuing so far.... 앞으로 더 결정적, 더 결단하게 잘 해야 된다는...아싸!)

FINAL COUNTDOWN!!!

final week in Dangjin power plant site... I thought I will miss, and appreciate this week... who knows~~

Sunday night... I reached in the evening, and as Sunday the week before, went out for dinner on my own... the difference is that I ate eel porridge this time... they said it's good for body, and costs only 5000 won!!! on the way back, I bought an ice-cream for 2000 won, paid double for the price I can get in Seoul...zzz... It took me whole night to digest the porridge... and ended up that I couldn't sleep well... I was wondering where did my housemates go... were they out for drinking, as it was 말복... was it possible that we don't need to go office on Monday, that's why they didn't come? and probably the porridge was too good, took so long time to be digested, and I suffered from itch for the whole night@.@

Consequently, tiredness was with me for almost the whole Monday... in the afternoon, one of my senior had to shift in order to empty up an apartment unit... again, I became a temporary cleaner, mopping the floor, cleaning, moving this and that>.<... didn't expect at all, that I have to do all these during my intern... fine... we called it experience... and because of the shifting, we didn't go back to site office, and my dinner>>?... he gave me 10000 won, asked me to order food, while 3 of them going to meet their previous female colleague... kena dumped sial... okay that's fine! my disaster started once I got back in hostel, there's no number to order Chinese food... Since my housemates asked to wait and go out together for drinking, I took the ice-cream I bought the night before( I couldn't eat that time due to indigestion) to tahan, and when clock showed 9:15pm, I gave up, and started to cook myself rameon... when I was almost done, the call came, I couldn't find any timing better than this!!! gotta settle it fast, and got to the beer where the others were... Got back around 11:30, online a while, but the stomach was still filled up with meat and beer... thanks God that I 'only' needed to wake up and go toilet for 3 times!!!

today, Tuesday... I expected another tiring day, yet, it turned out to be disastrous as well... those fellows, they got back at 3 in the morning, and the guy that in charge of taking us to work and back home, was late!!! it started to rain somemore while we're waiting... What happened so? we were super late to office, and didn't take breakfast in the first place, sial... and my stomach started to cause trouble.... until an hour plus after I had my breakfast around 9, rameon again!!! Nevermind, I'm fine now, and going to depart for an interview with HR staffs in Pyeongtaek... guess it will wrap up the rest of the day, and 3 more days to go... Grant me ur blessing for the rest of my intern, I pray, deep in my heart....